I dont even know what to say but... I need them prayers. I need strength I need endurance i need remembering what happy actually is
im in a dead end job and my phone fell in water tonight at that bs job - i cant even afford to replace it with a weeks paycheck thats how shitty this job is. So...
im really kinda at wits end
and thats without ... all of this
all the thinking of how close to the edge of the cliff we are with all the trump/q stuff. Im just at wits end and trying to keep myself a good hamster on the wheel for my own survival but ugh im so close to just saying screw it n giving up. Im tired to watching this movie, im tired of the shit life always throws at me, im just tired. i dont care anymore right now call it a blackpill but i really wiish i could doze off tonight and thats a wrap for my story because..... i dont have it left in me to wait for whatever fireworks we've been promised at the end. i just dont care. pedos are still out there ruining countless kids lives, politics is still corrupt as can be, good people still rot in jail while evil people dont. im just fucking done so i really need a prayer cause I aint tryna leave yet but its tempting
<3 thank you. as someone who feels writing my lyrics is the realest i'll ever be in this pound of ground beef piloting a body called a brain LOL =
sometimes when it counts its what you say that counts... and you definitely said the right thing.
And trust me the chance of me doing anything to harm myself is likely as Hillary being arrested on film tomorrow morning (but wouldnt that be sweet to see)
when i say im done i dont mean a split decision suicide because i know people who have done that and, for reference - "uncle" Bill killed himself when i was 3 and it still left a huge impact on my life (and my music, infact) RIP WILLIAM MOORE.
but nah when i say im done i more mean im done pretending life is going to get any better - but after that thought seeps into your brain it becomes dangerousso ty for your ....do i call it concern? lol
You are welcome my friend.