Sorry for the difficult time. The dream was God's warning to you of what was happening in your marriage. So God is aware of what is going on in your life and He is the one that want to spend intimate time with you and He can supply all your emotional needs. Go back to His Word, Seeking God and His ways as you go through the refining fire. You have the gift of Mercy, I believe, which is why you go out of your way to help people. The scripture also calls for you to love yourself. So, if you are not making sure you have enough to make ends meet, then that is something you need to seek God's wisdom for. You write a lot so people will understand you. But you can go to God and you don't need all this writing because God already knows what is going on with you. But it's time you seek God's guidance now. Not man's.