My wife and I are both on our third marriages. Your post was too long for me to read it all but know the gist. We have been together 20 years now and thank God, we found each other. Accept what is happening and find someone who loves you the way you deserve. I never had children of my own but have raised many. My marriages have been 12 years, 7 years and 20 years. My wife is 6 years older and first she married 4 years younger so hers were longer. You have no idea who God will put in your life including special needs children that you only help right the ship that is their parents for a year or two.
My wife and I are both on our third marriages. Your post was too long for me to read it all but know the gist. We have been together 20 years now and thank God, we found each other. Accept what is happening and find someone who loves you the way you deserve. I never had children of my own but have raised many. My marriages have been 12 years, 7 years and 20 years. My wife is 6 years older and first she married 4 years younger so hers were longer. You have no idea who God will put in your life including special needs children that you only help right the ship that is their parents for a year or two.