I've always had a side that leaned toward procrastination, but never to the point that I seem physically, mentally unable to take care of business.
For example, I still have a number of task not started, or unfinished that I need to complete to protect my property, family wellbeing, in the event of civil unrest.
I have done somethings, but I am very frustrated that I am having such difficulty getting key important task completed. "You fucking had the chance and failed them", is how I will feel if I don't complete these things.
I am hesitant to blame what might be pure sorry ass laziness on some outside force, but damn it man, I swear I seem to be under the influence of some bad mojo, and was just wondering if I was alone in this.
Maybe, just maybe... there's a part of you that's trying to tell you you're wasting your life force preparing for something that will never happen. I totally get what you're saying and can relate to it completely.
There's a LOT of things happening, converging actually, right now - and it's all very overwhelming if your assumptions are wrong to begin with. Yes, everybody's butthole is puckering from time to time lately with the PROJECTED POSSIBILITY of the money situation going forward - and all the ugly scenarios our minds project as if they're real. But they're not. It's not here ... yeah maybe it could be, but I don't think so.
As I mentioned - convergence. Not only are we feeling the squeeze of financial aspects - trying to just feed ourselves and not go into debt, but there are SPIRITUAL aspects that we are going through. Investigate THE DARK NIGHT IF THE SOUL and see of that resonates with you. You're not alone - so many are experiencing this RIGHT NOW - including myself and several close friends. There's a reason for it. I'll leave it there.
I just watched Derek Johnson on Roseanne and it was very good. Say what you want about DJ, but I don't think anyone can disprove anything he says when he points to laws and orders and ultimately, The Plan. It makes sense & gave me a bit of hopium because nothing during these last several years under this Biden character has imploded. Yes, inflation is high, but gas is still <$4, your lights are still on and nobody's set off any nukes on US soil. We need to count our blessings... and remind ourselves we are still at war and it could be WAY worse.
I went through the whole stressed out gotta prep for doomsday scenario myself - but I was met with EXTREME RESISTANCE personally - and reverberations of Y2K and all the HDPE barrels of grain and food I had to throw out, essentially stopped me from wasting my life worrying about doomsday.
My faith in God always giving us a way out and the knowledge (not belief) that I am eternal, made me step back and unyoke all those "have to do" things and let go of all that self imposed stress that I put on myself - nobody else did that but me. I gotta own it. So, while I'll keep on stacking gold and doing a few other things, I'm not going to do shit if the grid goes down or the gas runs out - God put me here and loves me. He's going to hook me up - whether that means me needing to use everything he's put between my ears, or something else - I gotta have faith it'll all be okay.
Otherwise - fuck it. See you on the other side. We're all going there anyway. Relax and put things into perspective. Eternity is a long time...
I'll buy all of that wisdom my fren.