I watched a few things that I immediately "regretted", because it filled me with a tremendous rage that I had to walk through for quite some time after that.
In that walk, I had to separate righteous anger from vengeful rage and try to get back to the place of loving the person while hating the sin.
It sucked - and as you said, my light was very dim during that period - replaced with absolute rage.
I'm not sure everyone finds their way back - and it never gets easier every time I click on a video that I shouldn't have.
I'm convinced that if that's where we set out to walk initially, there won't be any reason to try another path. As long as we get there at some point, that's a win.
I watched a few things that I immediately "regretted", because it filled me with a tremendous rage that I had to walk through for quite some time after that.
In that walk, I had to separate righteous anger from vengeful rage and try to get back to the place of loving the person while hating the sin.
It sucked - and as you said, my light was very dim during that period - replaced with absolute rage.
I'm not sure everyone finds their way back - and it never gets easier every time I click on a video that I shouldn't have.
Only because of Jesus was I able to walk back.
I'm convinced that if that's where we set out to walk initially, there won't be any reason to try another path. As long as we get there at some point, that's a win.