I totally get that, and we are all on a journey Fren, and they are all different :)
I have stood in a hallowed presence and shamed myself so badly it has required a vow of 10 years now to show penance. It was a stupid act of hubris, which is why I now try so very hard to be humble.
I may never step back into that presence again, and that's ok, but if I do it I will be as a different person.
I have been so blessed in my life, I may have also mentioned in other posts that I might have had the hardest working guardian angel in the world when I was younger - but I count my blessings now, and they are many.
I have one job, and I intend to work at it until my last breath. The net effect to me is immaterial to be honest, as long as I fulfil my vows and never give up (hard as that can be sometimes).
That's the point of discipline. And shame. That's what putting the fear of God means and why loving Jesus for actually saving us is real. If we mind what we've been taught, then we can fear not.
I totally get that, and we are all on a journey Fren, and they are all different :)
I have stood in a hallowed presence and shamed myself so badly it has required a vow of 10 years now to show penance. It was a stupid act of hubris, which is why I now try so very hard to be humble.
I may never step back into that presence again, and that's ok, but if I do it I will be as a different person.
I have been so blessed in my life, I may have also mentioned in other posts that I might have had the hardest working guardian angel in the world when I was younger - but I count my blessings now, and they are many.
I have one job, and I intend to work at it until my last breath. The net effect to me is immaterial to be honest, as long as I fulfil my vows and never give up (hard as that can be sometimes).
That's the point of discipline. And shame. That's what putting the fear of God means and why loving Jesus for actually saving us is real. If we mind what we've been taught, then we can fear not.