I really don't know what to think of this.
As many of you know we've been in divorce discussions for over a year. She came to me an hour ago and said "Well, things are getting down to the wire ... and ... honestly... I dont want this ..."
And so I told her I will always love her and I meant all of my vows and that ultimately I just want her to be happy and I dont want her just deciding to be with me and then changing her mind again in a few weeks.
She says that she was thinking that way because of just how hard everything has been on us over the last few years. And as I told her, through sickness and in health, through rich and poor.
She then told me , laughingly, "will you take me back?"
She then proceeded to tell me she wants me to move in with them when they move in the coming weeks. I was like "yeah but we've been sleeping in separate rooms for more than six months now?" and she said "well? we'd have to change that, obviously."
I quite honestly don't know how to take all of this. God got me into this kind of acceptance phase, if you will, and now she hits me with this. So now I'm mentally like, yeah, of course, I love her .... but why did God have me go down that road in the first place?
NO clue what I'm supposed to be doing or if she's going to just change her mind in the coming weeks. But I promised to keep you all updated.
And quite honestly, I really think this is because so many of you have been praying for me. I really do. God is making moves behind the scenes and I'm floored. Today has really honestly felt like I'm in a dream.
EDIT: WE ARE NO LONGER IN SEPARATE ROOMS. She's sleeping in the room with me tonight.
Ya'll... I dont even know what to say. Glory, glory, glory. Hallelujah, this is a true testimony of God's power.
Bro, having been thru 3 relatively short term separations (each was about 4-6 months, spread out over the course of 20 yrs) before the 4th and final separation from my wife, I will tell you to take it all one day at a time. There's a lot of trauma there individually, and shared trauma between the two of you, as well. I suggest going to marriage counseling with a psychologist akin to someone of Dr. Jordan Peterson's caliber and cut, but it isn't necessary, as long as you both are 100% committed to making the marriage work. It took time for the marriage to get to this point, and it will take time to get past this in order for you both to heal, individually and as a couple. If one, or the both of you aren't fully committed, it won't work, no matter whether you find a counselor to help, or not. Just keep in mind that sometimes, splits happen and sometimes it's best to stay split (as is my case). Whatever the future outcome may be, that's a "future question." Focus on the here and now. Thoughts and fears of what "may be" will still be there, just make sure you keep them as quiet as possible so you can make an honest attempt at healing yourself, each other, and the marriage in general. Also, keep your Faith in God and His Plan and everything will work out accordingly.
Good luck my brother, and God Bless.