I really don't know what to think of this.
As many of you know we've been in divorce discussions for over a year. She came to me an hour ago and said "Well, things are getting down to the wire ... and ... honestly... I dont want this ..."
And so I told her I will always love her and I meant all of my vows and that ultimately I just want her to be happy and I dont want her just deciding to be with me and then changing her mind again in a few weeks.
She says that she was thinking that way because of just how hard everything has been on us over the last few years. And as I told her, through sickness and in health, through rich and poor.
She then told me , laughingly, "will you take me back?"
She then proceeded to tell me she wants me to move in with them when they move in the coming weeks. I was like "yeah but we've been sleeping in separate rooms for more than six months now?" and she said "well? we'd have to change that, obviously."
I quite honestly don't know how to take all of this. God got me into this kind of acceptance phase, if you will, and now she hits me with this. So now I'm mentally like, yeah, of course, I love her .... but why did God have me go down that road in the first place?
NO clue what I'm supposed to be doing or if she's going to just change her mind in the coming weeks. But I promised to keep you all updated.
And quite honestly, I really think this is because so many of you have been praying for me. I really do. God is making moves behind the scenes and I'm floored. Today has really honestly felt like I'm in a dream.
EDIT: WE ARE NO LONGER IN SEPARATE ROOMS. She's sleeping in the room with me tonight.
Ya'll... I dont even know what to say. Glory, glory, glory. Hallelujah, this is a true testimony of God's power.
Amen! definitely a breakthrough.
What's interesting is this has really changed my character. I'm taking more 'charge' now of things.
This is kind of off topic and random but, for example, today, I said enough is enough and I called a meeting with leadership at work. I came prepared with all of the things I've done to transform the company over the last year and asked why, since I am eligible, have I not received a raise.
Of course they talked in circles and never gave an answer - at which point I respectively told them that I want this reviewed and made effective by next week.
Felt pretty good, honestly, to take a stand for myself. And when they said "we don't review integrity, we review data", I was able to say "so data is more important than the quality, compassion, and righteousness of your employees? So you are literally saying its numbers over people?" They looked almost shocked that I made that statement.
I think for too long I've been quiet and have been very pushover-ish. This has made me into a leader with a different mindset and a different approach at everything.
I believe she saw this in me as well.
Side note: Been at my company nearly a year, no raise, piddly pay, now they moved me to an account manager role with NO raise but new added responsibilities. Total sham.
And you wouldn't believe who my leadership team is comprised of. They're all DEI purple hair type people. I am starting to feel like I have a discrimination lawsuit on my hands ... but this is me going way off topic.
Anyway - thank you for the comforting words!
Best wishes to you and thanks for coming back to me with that I am very happy for you.