Can’t take much credit. God genuinely drew close and I leaned in with all I had. I think it was his strength I drew on. They had me convinced that I was going to have a baby just to watch it struggle and die but I knew that even if that were the case God would be there through it and I would trust him and thank him no matter what. I likely would not have had the amino that triggered labor if I had been stronger in my faith but I was worried that the baby would suffer without the right medical team so I relented. Thankfully I was able to hold off the labor that triggered long enough to give my precious the best possible outcome. That too was God I won’t dox us by revealing birthdates but it VERY obvious that baby was born in God’s time not man’s. My youngest is a light in a difficult time. My oldest has leaned on that light many times and they argue like all siblings but they love and defend each other from all threats. I have watched this child stand up to adults in a beautiful and respectful manner but strong when the adults aren’t doing the right thing. I have watched my oldest fight so my youngest keeps a big brother. He wanted to give his make a wish to his younger sibling but they denied it. Yes this sounds sad but it is beautiful to watch them lean on each other even as they lean into God. To have lost that…….. I can’t take any credit it is by God’s Grace I have my children. They are the most beautiful gift from my Lord and I am so grateful Jesus has protected and walks with both of them. I always say God gave me amazing and I am just trying not to screw it up. They really both came preprogrammed awesome from God. Despite the crazy in our lives I am truly truly blessed.