Hi friends, I am struggling with my sin of Pornography. It krept back up on me after a few years of doing "fine" i need to find the root of this issue. The problem is, im worn down. I want to be obedient, yet i keep falling to my flesh. Whats also difficult is im same sex attracted. While I wont go back to that life, that has still manifested in the form of watching pornography (mostly gay but in the end its all sin so it doesnt matter what type) but im asking for prayer. That God guide me to the root of this symptom, im so broken and I know i can only turn to God. I am just so weak and would love my brothers and sisters in Christ to be in prayer along side me. I can be very harsh on myself when i mess up. I was the kid to throw myself in time out from time to time. It feels like im doing the same thing today, God is telling me dont keep doing it but all is good and im saying no i have to sit in the corner.
Thank you all for reading this. I just needed to get this off my chest and have some people in prayer over it all. Love you all and may the Lord bless you and keep you.
Wow fren the honesty here is truly beautiful. U sharing this with your brother and sisters tells me God is most definitely working in this.
I am gonna pray on this more and see if Jesus leads me to more. However right now I feel Jesus saying don't give answers just pray.
Heavenly Father we love you so much. Today we come to you on behalf of our fren. First off we thank you that you found them and that they see the importance of relationship with you. Lord help them to remain close to you. Thank you that you gave them the boldness to speak the truth and confess these things. Thank you for calling them to reach out for prayer. Lord I don't pretend to have the answer here and they are lost as well. So we reach out to you and ask for you to reveal the root cause of this issue. Either show them or give a brother and sister the words needed to bring them from this.
However Lord we can also sometimes make things about us. Yet truly it's not about anything we do but the Work you have done. Help us to not lose sight of what you did on the cross. Help us to tap into your grace as we seek to be purified. Often the weight of our sins can distract us from your love. Yet your Word tells us that nothing can separate us from your Love. Help my fren hear to hold this fact tight. You Love them Lord and you are with them. You will not forsake them. Yet you also want kanime1224 to learn and grow from this. To develop a deeper relationships with you in this situation. I thank you that you brought our brother here. Show us how we can carry this burden with them as you heal whatever needs to be healed. Hallelujah we love you Jesus and know you are working here. Give us the wisdom needed to navigate these things. Help my brother to have the courage to continue to be open and transparent, for darkness can not remain when light is shined on it. For you are a God of good and you are higher then All. Your ways our Greater. In Jesus Christ glorious name amen
Hey fren I would like to keep in contact if you are willing. We can use this thread, talk in PM or even do a voice chat if you are comfortable. Not sure why but I feel something will come out that you need if we continue to talk. We are in this together fren. Regardless I am gonna continue to pray for you
I will try to keep in touch (trying to focus on my relationship with God and not spending hours here refreshing in hopes something finally happening lol). Thank you for the prayer. Yes God was there prompting because I need the prayer more than advice haha. But over all I feel comforted tonight, I know its not my works, but boy do I forget to remind myself. Psalms 69-71 is the prayer I ended up finding for myself in The Word. I share not to boast of myself, im so broken, yet thats where God works best. I share because I want others to know they arent alone in any struggle (unique in your story not your struggle) and I pray someday God get me to a place where I can go to that community and start bringing them to know God, if repentance and acceptance comes from that, amen, but if not thats between them and God. Idk what the journey looks like. All I know is what it looks like to obey my King.
Yes absolutely spend time with Jesus above all. Doesn't have to be all the time. Just get back to me as you feel led. I will be praying for you so it helps to know how to pray. These things are every progressing so prayer needs change as the Lord reveals things to you.
Sounds like you have a good understanding of things. Our pain often becomes our platform. Keep thinking in terms of how this can help other. Jesus definitely wants to use that. U can speak into this situation far better then I because I'm an outside looking in. I can only relate in the spirit and sometimes people see a distance with that. Where as u live it.
God bless fren keep fighting the good fight and laying it all before the foot of the cross
Together through Christ we have endless potential