I'm so torn by it. I was moved and affected tremendously by his death. I was moved by her speeches because I was overcome with pain, much like everyone else. I've been there losing a spouse at a young age and I don't remember much of the eulogy I gave, because I was on autopilot and in a fog. Everyone said they couldn't believe how composed I was and that I did such a great job. Truthfully I don't know how I did it. And that was with an expected death with a 5 year battle with cancer. Even though I knew it was coming, I was still never prepared, and the shock and realization that she was gone hit me like a tank. Her's was very unexpected even though they probably always knew there was a slight probability someone could attempt it. So I want to give her grace in that, and hope that she was given the power and strength of the Holy Spirit
It's the overdramatization that when I rewatch her that sticks me.
This battle has taken it's toll on me and now I'm probably seeing things that are not there because I'm skeptical of everything. I hope I'm wrong on her.
As someone who had no idea who Charlie Kirk was before his death, this entire spectacle has seemed "off" to me since it began. The emotional outpourings, flags nearly immediately at half staff, what felt like a huge PR push, people all over YouTube lauding CK. It just seemed so over the top, and still does.
I understand what you are saying about autopilot and I too will not pass judgment but I also will not be blind to possibilities. I'm on the sidelines with this one. Just observing. I kind of had to check myself and my emotions a little bit that day. That's pretty rare for me. I've seen some pretty horrific shit in my days.
I'm so torn by it. I was moved and affected tremendously by his death. I was moved by her speeches because I was overcome with pain, much like everyone else. I've been there losing a spouse at a young age and I don't remember much of the eulogy I gave, because I was on autopilot and in a fog. Everyone said they couldn't believe how composed I was and that I did such a great job. Truthfully I don't know how I did it. And that was with an expected death with a 5 year battle with cancer. Even though I knew it was coming, I was still never prepared, and the shock and realization that she was gone hit me like a tank. Her's was very unexpected even though they probably always knew there was a slight probability someone could attempt it. So I want to give her grace in that, and hope that she was given the power and strength of the Holy Spirit
It's the overdramatization that when I rewatch her that sticks me.
This battle has taken it's toll on me and now I'm probably seeing things that are not there because I'm skeptical of everything. I hope I'm wrong on her.
As someone who had no idea who Charlie Kirk was before his death, this entire spectacle has seemed "off" to me since it began. The emotional outpourings, flags nearly immediately at half staff, what felt like a huge PR push, people all over YouTube lauding CK. It just seemed so over the top, and still does.
I knew of Charlie Kirk, and I knew he threw many libs into fits - and still does - but I didn't like how parasitic both sides seemed on this.
Sorry for your loss fren.
I understand what you are saying about autopilot and I too will not pass judgment but I also will not be blind to possibilities. I'm on the sidelines with this one. Just observing. I kind of had to check myself and my emotions a little bit that day. That's pretty rare for me. I've seen some pretty horrific shit in my days.