After J-6 happened my son cut me off completely.
I had called to ask him to not get the jab. That was Jan 18, 2021.
I became a single mom when he was 5. I put him through college and then the VA paid for his Master's Degree once I was determined 100% disabled from combat.
I dont think I can handle this wait much longer. Since he stopped speaking to me I lost my Dad, and my sweet sister-in-law died and my brother lost his job and moved in with me and my husband. He was comfy in the pool house, then it burned to the ground 14 months ago, and he committed suicide two months ago.
And....my husband just died.
Here is the message relayed to me via my son's ex-wife tonight. I had asked her to let my son know that we had lost my husband of 10 years, someone who cared enough to sing "The Lord's Prayer" at his wedding.
"Thanks, Cadie. You can let her know I received the information. Sorry you keep having to be the conduit for all of my family’s business. I’m sure it goes without saying that I had to isolate myself from her and my family. The QAnon and lizard people nonsense was the final dealbreaker.
I hope you’re doing well, Thomas"
Frens, I have served my time. I have stood firm, I have defended our movement, I have OD'd on popcorn. Is it any wonder others are sick and tired off the teasing... "Its time" "boom" "Trust the plan" "EBS incoming"
If anyone here has access to anybody who knows a Q person tell them I tried and tried and tried, but now I am starting to want to die myself.
I have lost all desire to live anymore and unless you are a mother who has an adult child who hates you JUST because of this movement you will not understand.
There is no one left to inform you so it is goodbye. I am done.
First thing to acknowledge, most people we meet are pretty asleep and running on automatic. Second thing, when people see us, even people we have known our whole lives, they don't really see "us." They see a person that they have developed a comfortable expected definition of. When we veer off that, when we start acting in a way that threatens the comfortable sleep dream they are living in, it shouldn't surprise us they try to push away for their own protection. Jesus said every prophet is hated in their hometown. It is ultimately a lonely reality being at least semi aware of reality. We can't really go back to sleep like the guy in the matrix movie just wanting to enjoy his steak and forget. Even if you could forget everything and have your relationship back, would you choose that?
Like it or not, you have a blessing/curse, and like Cassandra they don't hear you. Bottom line, we are at war. It could be bombs and bullets, but it is the minds we are fighting in. You aren't alone. Many of us feel the way you do. Don't give away the gift you have been given. Be proud you at some level were courageous enough to accept it.
God loves you. Think of Job. It sounds like your trials are on par with his, though slower and more drawn out. I'll pray for you tonight and have my church pray for you this coming Sunday. I wish I had more for you, but I support the messages that others have left as well. There is hope. And I hope it finds you.