It is levels of Zeal. For me I have always told others what is the stuff I learn. For instance in telecom I don’t hoard information and look down on others I work with and laugh if they don’t know little tricks. I will show them and it is up to them to remember or use. One will find you will get the same results. I have always wondered if I am retarded because I will teach and show others instead of that other path of hoarding and looking at others as competition at work.

One guy tried to get fired once and I was standing behind him and he did not know I was there. He knew I was good at what I do and needed me out of the way.

The same in the Spiritual Realm. Many want to show others and others cannot see. My wife cannot see and of late she will tell me how she cannot see how things are connected in real life. She looks at the Bible as something written in the past and how can it be reliable for today… yet she went to a religious school and church every week growing up and I was with hoodlums, drug users and worse growing up.

To this day I still make mistakes with Jesus and I am weak. I prefer weak in a sense because if you ever think you are mightier than others and get that spirit of being better than someone else, too me that is sickness. I ponder the realm though. See there is people who are very spiritual in the darkness side and they prey on people intentionally.

Do they ever get fatigued like those on this side? I dunno.. love covers the multitude of sin and Jesus came to separate light from darkness. Could one say being fatigued is darkness trying to pull you in? Hmm