This is probably nothing, but I really feel the past year has been insanely cursed for me.
- this time last year, my wife was having chronic gut problems
- also this time last year we had a cluster fly infestation
- my pet ferret died last march
- wife's dad had a heart attack, or 5 to be precise
- mouse problem in the house for 2 months
- mom threatened to commit suicide
- found out I have liver and gallbladder problems and my gut is basically broken too...
- once the mice were dealt with, I then got carpet beetles
- my wife broke her tooth while we visited my mom to help bring her back from the brink in VA.
- head back to Italy for her dad to fix the tooth, then 2 days before we leave (last thanksgiving), my dad died from a host of issues, but mostly copd and heart failure.
- madness In CO, fixing loads of shit at my dad's that suddenly just broke as we arrived. He flooded the house years ago, and of course when I get there, a ceiling falls in on the basement.
- fix most of the issues, come back to the UK today and my own house gets flooded from a burst water pipe.
So my health is weakening, my dad and my pet are dead, my wife's fam is worried constantly, I'm having to repair two locations simultaneously now, and I have no idea if there are still bugs hanging around. It really is starting to feel like some kinda curse is hovering over me with all the crap I'm having to shovel daily. Anyone else feeling like this?
Nope. I broke the generational curses on me and my family years ago.
I'm just waiting for society to get off it's collective ass and get it's shit straight. Hopefully before I decide to kick the bucket.
Keep your head up, fren. Keep the Faith, keep praying, keep moving forward.
You're being tested because you've awakened and aren't beholden to the old paradigm of fear based tactics meant to hold you back.
This will all recede with time. You just have to make sure you maintain as positive an outlook as you can.
It's not easy, but it is doable.