This is probably nothing, but I really feel the past year has been insanely cursed for me.
- this time last year, my wife was having chronic gut problems
- also this time last year we had a cluster fly infestation
- my pet ferret died last march
- wife's dad had a heart attack, or 5 to be precise
- mouse problem in the house for 2 months
- mom threatened to commit suicide
- found out I have liver and gallbladder problems and my gut is basically broken too...
- once the mice were dealt with, I then got carpet beetles
- my wife broke her tooth while we visited my mom to help bring her back from the brink in VA.
- head back to Italy for her dad to fix the tooth, then 2 days before we leave (last thanksgiving), my dad died from a host of issues, but mostly copd and heart failure.
- madness In CO, fixing loads of shit at my dad's that suddenly just broke as we arrived. He flooded the house years ago, and of course when I get there, a ceiling falls in on the basement.
- fix most of the issues, come back to the UK today and my own house gets flooded from a burst water pipe.
So my health is weakening, my dad and my pet are dead, my wife's fam is worried constantly, I'm having to repair two locations simultaneously now, and I have no idea if there are still bugs hanging around. It really is starting to feel like some kinda curse is hovering over me with all the crap I'm having to shovel daily. Anyone else feeling like this?
I had a brother in law screw me out of a lot of money and seemed to be the start of a downward spiral in my life that lasted from late 2021 through 2024.
It was due to me being too nice and trusting ... I lent the loser a house ... we had a handshake agreement that he does the work needed to get it ready to sell and I basically didn't charge him much, if anything, in rent so long as he gets the crap that needed to be done finished (and it was mostly painting ... really simple shit ... and he did that for a living!).
You probably see where this is going ...
Without going into too many details that distract from your post, he turned what was supposed to be a six month stay into a 4 year welfare check I paid for. Year 4 was a real pisser in that he moved his brain damaged girlfriend (now wife) and her kid in with him (didn't know about this since the scumbag did it when his sister died ... my wife was a mess when that happened, obviously). I also found out he left the house via a Facebook post they made about buying a house (I paid for the down payment on that place from what I can tell ... never got a thank you).
Yes, I am well aware I handled the situation poorly and should have thrown the bastard out after a year, but he was family ... I'm sure some people would want to criticize my handling of the situation and point out I was in control the whole time ... I agree with you 100% :-).
Anyway, that happened in late 2021. From then through 2024, it seemed like I was hit with a nonstop barrage of misery (similar to what you are going through in many ways) that drove me to a breaking point. I've been through a lot in life and NEVER gave up. Around mid 2024, I did ... I started to give up. While I didn't do anything stupid, I never felt so lost. I even started to flake out at work ... and in the 25 years I have been doing what I do, that has never happened ... I've always been the go to guy when the shit's hitting the fan and the task is impossible :-).
In early 2025, I started to pray more. I always felt like God gave me enough skills to survive on this planet and that I don't want to waste His time knowing damn well I can get through this. That was stupid on my part. Even if you are a non-believer, just try it. It helps your brain process everything going on ... that helps calm you ... and that allows you to think more clearly without emotions getting in the way.
I FINALLY started feeling like myself in July of last year. I'm pretty much back to normal now :-). I also learned that I will NEVER make an agreement with anyone unless legal docs are in place as I thought my brother in law was a good man and wouldn't dream of doing what he did.
You will make it through this fren. Many of us are always here to help. So many of us have been through our own personal forms of hell. When I get depressed, I tend to forget that and think I'm the only one that's going through it. You are never alone though ... never.