I think I'm losing it, frens.... With all the shit happening personally my mental health is on a knife edge tbh. I'm getting irrational, angry, emotional over stupid shit, and although my heart seems strong, the rest of me is hurting daily.
I'm living in what was once a nice house and is now looking like a bombsite. It's bringing by a lot of bad memories from the fire I had 9 years ago, which also forces me to remember my late wife. My ptsd is back. Worst of all is there is little I can do about most of this right now, as I'm playing hurry up and wait with the insurance companies and contractors, and my brain and body feel paralysed to act. Feel like I'm failing my family cuz I'm not functioning like I should...
So yeah... Could use some of God's help because I can't do this without him...
I'm so sorry to hear about your personal difficulties. I will pray that the Lord strengthens you. On your side, the best thing to do is cry out to the Lord for strength, and to put 100% of your trust in Christ, if you have not already done so. Turn away from any known sins, confessing them to Him. 1 John 1:9, If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. James 1:2, Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverence. Perseverence must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.