I think I'm losing it, frens.... With all the shit happening personally my mental health is on a knife edge tbh. I'm getting irrational, angry, emotional over stupid shit, and although my heart seems strong, the rest of me is hurting daily.
I'm living in what was once a nice house and is now looking like a bombsite. It's bringing by a lot of bad memories from the fire I had 9 years ago, which also forces me to remember my late wife. My ptsd is back. Worst of all is there is little I can do about most of this right now, as I'm playing hurry up and wait with the insurance companies and contractors, and my brain and body feel paralysed to act. Feel like I'm failing my family cuz I'm not functioning like I should...
So yeah... Could use some of God's help because I can't do this without him...
Prayers sent.
It is the small things that make a difference. Just changing one small thing for your self a day. Little steps of kindness for your future self.
And for worries, I think about this one:
Matthew 10:29–31 (ESV) “Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.”