I think I'm losing it, frens.... With all the shit happening personally my mental health is on a knife edge tbh. I'm getting irrational, angry, emotional over stupid shit, and although my heart seems strong, the rest of me is hurting daily.
I'm living in what was once a nice house and is now looking like a bombsite. It's bringing by a lot of bad memories from the fire I had 9 years ago, which also forces me to remember my late wife. My ptsd is back. Worst of all is there is little I can do about most of this right now, as I'm playing hurry up and wait with the insurance companies and contractors, and my brain and body feel paralysed to act. Feel like I'm failing my family cuz I'm not functioning like I should...
So yeah... Could use some of God's help because I can't do this without him...
Praying for peace and swift justice. I second the advice to find some good Christian music and listen for a while. Music has a way, I think, of bringing heaven to earth in a way that impacts us deeply. I find that starting with music that fits my mood first helps me get out of it, rather like the Psalms often start with some complaint of the writer, them move to praise for who God is:
Here's James 1:3 From APX (If you remembered a-ha! Take On Me, and liked the tune); https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhOyVI2e_JU
And Ps 55 From Leslie Phillips https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-hOu-x8Ui3w
If you prefer hymns: It Is Well With My Soul - 2nd Chapter of Acts https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xersuaHDPv0