No, I don't miss it. I was an ignorant, arrogant kinckleheaded sucka back then, hence the handle I use. I'm still arrogant, some, and still kinckleheaded sometimes (because I still do some.things the hard way), but I'm no one's sucka any longer. And I'm damned sure not ignorant of how this world truly works and who's responsible for it.
Because of my awakening journey, I've been able to help awaken a lot of people. As a result, my children are heads and shoulders wiser than I ever was, or could've been at their ages. Especially my daughter. She's had the benefit of growing up with myself and her brothers completely awake and able to help foster her growth into an amazing young woman. Without my awakening, I shudder to think where they'd be at mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I actually don't like thinking about it, to be honest. It keeps me awake at night if I do.
I don't miss the friends I had back then. I don't miss the family that walked away from us (my kids and I, except for their mother. I do miss her, unfortunately). I don't miss the way I saw the world. I don't miss that world, other than the nostalgia of growing up in an unplugged world. However, in the 70's and 80's, Miami was a rough city to be a white, Christian, American male child. I literally had to fight almost everyday from 5th grade through 8th grade, just to get to and from school, before my parents moved us to Ctrl. FL. It was hard being a minority in school in your own country. It helped me to be able to better relate to the minorites here in Ctrl FL after we moved.
I don't miss the old me one iota. And I don't miss being asleep. It's hard enough to get on in this world, even awake. I think it's actually harder to be awake in today's world than to be asleep. I can't even fathom what it's like to be asleep any more, gleefully contributing to the decline of our society.
For that, I'm supremely grateful to God for putting me on this path. No one else should miss their old version, either. God put us all here for a reason. That's all that matters.
No, I don't miss it. I was an ignorant, arrogant kinckleheaded sucka back then, hence the handle I use. I'm still arrogant, some, and still kinckleheaded sometimes (because I still do some.things the hard way), but I'm no one's sucka any longer. And I'm damned sure not ignorant of how this world truly works and who's responsible for it.
Because of my awakening journey, I've been able to help awaken a lot of people. As a result, my children are heads and shoulders wiser than I ever was, or could've been at their ages. Especially my daughter. She's had the benefit of growing up with myself and her brothers completely awake and able to help foster her growth into an amazing young woman. Without my awakening, I shudder to think where they'd be at mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I actually don't like thinking about it, to be honest. It keeps me awake at night if I do.
I don't miss the friends I had back then. I don't miss the family that walked away from us (my kids and I, except for their mother. I do miss her, unfortunately). I don't miss the way I saw the world. I don't miss that world, other than the nostalgia of growing up in an unplugged world. However, in the 70's and 80's, Miami was a rough city to be a white, Christian, American male child. I literally had to fight almost everyday from 5th grade through 8th grade, just to get to and from school, before my parents moved us to Ctrl. FL. It was hard being a minority in school in your own country. It helped me to be able to better relate to the minorites here in Ctrl FL after we moved.
I don't miss the old me one iota. And I don't miss being asleep. It's hard enough to get on in this world, even awake. I think it's actually harder to be awake in today's world than to be asleep. I can't even fathom what it's like to be asleep any more, gleefully contributing to the decline of our society.
For that, I'm supremely grateful to God for putting me on this path. No one else should miss their old version, either. God put us all here for a reason. That's all that matters.