Get a verse by verse commentary on Revelation. (I like this series, but you’ll find what you need if you look) You’ll gain deeper understanding. There’s the “story” (prophesied historical events) and the underlying symbolic meaning of the “story” (Who’s Who in the Zoo) and then there’s the utterly obscure spiritual meaning which can be experienced but not described. (God is in the Dark. ie Moses at Sinai) Skeleton, bone, marrow. All miraculous in their way, but the marrow is sweet.
Even Dante needed a guide. You’ll never find your way in or out, or know what you’ve seen without one. God Bless. Amen

You’re saying all the things I’ve been wondering about for years now. I’m as red blooded of a patriot as they come, but the only thing I know is that our Heavenly Father is in control and His timing and will is perfect.

sick of this god stuff. he is omnipotent - he has the power to snap away all demons and child suffering in an instant. Instead he has allowed unspeakable horrors to happen to innocent children. He has the power to intervene but chose to look away and let it happen. He is now complicit and ironically, must judge Himself accordingly.

Evil wins when good people do nothing. God needs to have a word with Himself, son.