I understand. The darkness is contagious though so it’s important to live a positive life as that welcomes Him in to be able to set things right.

I think of it like we are fences - we can stand right up and not fall one way or the other for a few years. Eventually we do start to age - and we inevitably fall. Either to darkness or towards light.

Ive lived for my self interests. It sucks ass.

When I live focused on others & knowing that for whatever reason, I do good and help others live a positive life, things get better.

I accept that, here, things will get much much better before they get worse.

Regardless of the outcome - maybe I can help save as many people from darkness as I can. Ive been there. I don’t wanna go back - but I will to drag souls out.

The mind is the Battlefield - Your soul is the prize.