During this scamdemic, and for the first time in my life, my ability to stand by my values has seriously been put into question. I have caved to pressure almost my entire life and have always resented myself for this. I always wondered if would cower in a situation that pit my morals against authority.
These past few years have helped me solidify myself internally and spiritually. Almost like I am a rock that cannot be broken now. I witness coworkers and friends who are reluctantly willing to cave into the pressure exerted by the gov, but I am comfortably not in that group anymore. They are uncertain of their future, while I am quite comfortably certain of mine.
I had family members who came to me last year wanting me to join in starting a covid testing business. Lots of $ to be made but I couldn't sell my soul like that. Looking back, I could not be happier.
I get the motto that "If I don't do it, then someone else will" But when it comes to something I believe to be completely against my morals, no amount of money is going to change my stance.
I have never gotten a "test"
I will never get a "test"
Therefore, I cannot encourage anyone to be "tested".
I will not participate in this con
I hope this has been as much of a growing experience for you all as it has been for me.
Lots of love
+1 for the forgiveness thing.
Still 100% behind you on everything you said. Just know, the only end of this road FOR YOU, is forgiveness.
"Easier said than done" could very well be another tattoo you get, because it's ridiculously difficult to do. Christ knew. And to a lesser, much more fallible extent I know too... Going through the End Game on my Last Big Hangup here as well.
Proud of you, proud of me, proud of all of us. We all need forgiveness. It's literally the main message of Christ's story.
It's one of the hardest things to do. Quite a niggler, since in theory it seems like it should be easy. It's not easy.
I wish you all the best on this narrow, seemingly unending road. o7