This has been an odd feeling I've been having for the past couple weeks. I feel like I was "baptized" and born again, but I can never really pinpoint when it happened. Over time I lost identity of who I was growing up, as if the lockdowns completely erased all sense of who I was. I still have memories of my younger self of course, but now they don't really feel like they're my memories. A lot of my ambitions remain the same, but I still like there's a lot missing. Think of switching from Windows to Linux and you're still struggling to learn all the features. That's how, I guess, my soul feels.
Anyone else experiencing this? Is this supposed to be a good thing?
Thanks, It is much appreciated. I do recommend seeing if there is a church in your area that host a Re:Generation program. It isn't meant to try and "fix" you, but give you the toolset to rely on God and His strength to fight the strong holds of sin and grow closer to Him. I will keep you in prayer.
All sin is equal in Gods eyes, it prevents us from being closer to him. Just like you don't hate me for my sin nature, I don't hate you for yours.
We as believers (The Church/Ecclesia) must walk together through our struggles. Best of luck to you as well. May Gods will be done in my life and in yours. Not easy but worth the work. I think of the song New Wine, "in the crushing, in the pressing, you (God) are making new wine". It will not be comfortable but it will bring new wine in a new wine skin.
Thank you. God bless you in your journey. We shall meet in heaven one day.