To all my friends out there who know what’s really going on… To all my conspiracy theorist friends…
Yes, sometimes it’s a curse and not always a blessing to be awake.
Awakening is the most liberating, alienating, excruciating, empowering, lonely, confusing, freeing, frightening, expansive journey.
If you find yourself struggling as you try to process all this insanity, you are not alone.
No one talks about the darkness that accompanies awakening, or the GRIEF. Not only grieving the life and illusions you once had but the realization that almost everything you thought you once knew, is a LIE.
The beliefs you’ve held, people you’ve trusted, principles you were taught- ALL LIES. Shattering illusions is RARELY an enjoyable experience.
There is a considerable amount of discomfort that comes with growth and the grieving process doesn’t stop there.
With these newfound realizations, you then find yourself grieving all over again. Grieving the loss of many relationships with people who just don’t “get it”. Feeling alone; being ridiculed and shamed, not only by the masses but for many of you, your very own family and friends too. Feeling like you no longer have much in common with the people you are surrounded by.
Struggling with carrying on bullshit, shallow conversations that lack substance with those who are still fast asleep.
Even feeling disconnected from your entire support system because they can’t see what you see.
Some even grieve the loss of their ignorance- because “ignorance is bliss” and reality is harsh.
Awakening can be a lonely road and you will often find yourself journeying alone.
There is no way to sugarcoat it- Awakening to the realities of this world is brutal. It will have you running through the entire gamut of human emotions.
You have to master the art of diving down the darkest of rabbit holes only to come out and still function in daily life, and that’s a skill people don’t talk about enough.
Some of you are struggling with feeling disconnected from family and friends, it’s as though they exist in another world.
Please know you are not alone, and not only are you not alone, you have an entire tribe standing with you.
We may be separated by miles, but we are DEEPLY connected; in purpose and in spirit.
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I went through a phase where Id just reach out to everyone new I met and flat out ask if they were awake. I was pretty desperate to share the load of grief I was feeling. I never found a friend to fill the void. My husband is awake, however and thats a blessing. Jesus has been holding my hand, too. I am in a much better place now. This post hits the nail on the head.
God bless you and your husband. Though I don’t know you, know that you are my friend.
Thank you, fren. I hope to meet you one day ❤️
God bless the both of you "Don't be a stranger, Friend.
Thanks fren ❤️ Hope to know you in person one day!
It would be amazing to have someone ask me if I am awake.
I was going to a church for a while hoping to meet someone there who understood my grief and what I was going through. I was freshly waking up to the reality that kids were being raped, murdered and eaten and I wanted someone to talk to there. I left the church after sobbing to the pastors wife telling her about the kids and she must have thought I was nuts. She ended up being those “yeah I don’t like to pay attention because its too depressing and Im going to Heaven anyways” people. It was sure a lonely time for me. Now I just tell people about the DS and what they do to anyone who will listen. I don’t expect them to be awake. I would love to meet you in real life fren. We would be best buds
What was the most common response to that question?
My answer would probably be: no, but I'm working on it. Then I'd want to know what you've discovered.
Response to which question? Are you awake? I usually throw out morsels and keywords to gauge their knowledge, rather than simply ask. Everyone feels entitled to the word awake 🤷🏼♀️ Idk how many punisher teeshirt owners Ive complimented only to hear “yeah the Punisher movie is awesome huh?” 😅
Oh wow epiphany - we should all get Q pins and wear them around town 😅
My husband is just now slowly waking. Other family, not so much. I still wonder why some are more capable of seeing and accepting the truth over others. Especially when that truth sometimes stares you right in the eyes.
It boggles my mind too. I don’t understand how the line divided the people from awake to dead asleep. There are family members of mine I once respected and thought highly of that have since proved their close-minded blind stupidity. I am more blessed by having a good handful of people in my family, including my mom and husband, who know whats up.
God bless your husband for waking up finally. I pray his awakening isn’t as harsh as some of ours