As we get older, our perspectives change on so much. Spending time with God is a blessing that we may struggle to make time for. I used to be there and still am some days. I had a superficial relationship with Him because I was trying to do so much to please myself and others down here. In all of that, I knew I was lacking it- -a true relationship with God.

I went to college, like so many other kids, and I majored in music, wanting to become a band director. I'm glad that didn't pan out! I love music, but that wouldn't have been the life for me. After a little more college, I got married, moved to my husband's duty station for a time, then we moved home and went to culinary school, and those skills far surpass any other education I could have gotten. The "baby fever" hit a bit after that. It never worked out until years later. (Will save you from reading about it!) I was miserable because of infertility and mad at God. I wanted a baby and was searching for fulfillment. I took more college classes, changing my major a couple times. I could never complete any of it. The entire time, I wanted nothing more than to be a homemaker. It took awhile, but I made it. I still struggle with comparing myself to others with money. Yes, it's tight (thanks, DC!) but I don't think I've ever been happier. I make time for God. I have 24 hours and He deserves them all from ol' pitiful me. I love that He wants me. He wants me! Now that my relationship is more genuine (on my side, always has been on His), I see how superficial they want us to live life is.