Very troubling, but not for the reasons we would usually jump to.
He had cancer, pretty aggressive, and it came and went then came and didn’t went.
This man was part of really a platoon of men who had a hand in raising me in the Church I grew up in. A Church I no longer attend and haven’t for 20 years plus.
I held a grudge against him for years for a question he asked when I randomly showed up at a Church event. He said, bluntly (as was his way) “What are you doing here?”
Which was the exact perfect question to ask, the honest question and it burned me up.
I held that grudge until the moment I saw him help my mom into my sisters car, the last time I went to worship with her. (And him, for that matter.) My mom was dying of cancer, this was days before she passed, and she basically fell into the seat of the car and that man kept his composure and when the door was shut and he turned away he let the tears flow. I loved him so much in that moment. I let it all go.
That was 6 years ago this spring.
I am devastated in a way that I did not see coming. Seeing other men who raised me who lost a friend crying absolutely put me right there with them. So many of the memories they spoke of years ago I was there for.
I will handle it, go on, figure out what to do with these thoughts and feelings. I am just kind of lost tonight.
On a brighter note, to end the year, I want to tell you all, this site has been directly from a higher power. I have lost so much since I started using my voice to speak out against what my eyes told me from the jump was wrong, yet you all are here.
Happy New Year. Love each other, but most of all forgive each other, and sooner rather that later.
May God bless you friend stay strong. We are the storm.
Thank you. I appreciate you.
Sorry for your loss. Glad you found this site and god.
I don't have fancy words or prayers, but this really touched me. God bless you.
I’m sorry you’re losing a friend, but I’m happy that you’re finding your faith again. I’ll be praying for you, God bless you and have a great night.
God has a strange way of grabbing us when he wants us. All we can do is listen. God bless you fren.
God Bless sir. Life is learning. Learning is hard and sometimes painful. Your words show that you have learned. That is all we can ask of life. You have touched my heart. Be well. Be strong. WWG1WGA
I'm so sorry for your loss. However with that said, one day you will see that man again as well as all of your loved ones. This is a Johns Hopkins University article called Healthcare After a Near Death Experience. It has 18 NDE stories in it and mine is one of them that was chosen for this article. God bless you my friend and let your Heart sing for your friend and family members are waiting for you to come home one day. God bless you sir. https://nibjournal.org/voices/healthcareafternde/
May your friend rest in peace- you were meant to se that act of kindness and caring- pay it forward
May the angels of God lift your friend.
I believe God shows himself in the little ways. The fact that you were able to see your friend with your mother seems insignificant at first glance, but it is huge. People want the grand miracle. I don't think that is how it works. I am sorry for the loss of your friend, but I am happy for you as well, because you got to see God at work up close and personal.
Thank you. That story touched a place in my heart that needed to heal. God bless you.
Prayers for you, fren. WWG1WGA
I am so sorry for your loss. May God comfort you and everyone who loved this man. May his memory, and the principles God shared with you through him, live on in you as you share them with others.
May God bless you & your loved ones in this coming year, Fren.
I share your tears, Fren. And your opinion about GAW.
Edit: I count your post as just one more bit of evidence that God is working to answer prayers. I believe God answers prayers expansively, more completely and perfectly than we ask, because He hears the prayers from all of us. Then He answers in His way and timing. I have been offering prayers for God's healing of illnesses and relationships. I believe God is working on it. Your post shows it.
You all are truly a blessing. I can’t thank you enough.
Forgiveness is a true gift from God. Both for the forgiver and the forgiven. I've seen it work near miracles in my own life.
Thank you so much.
I believe in the power of tears. They are flowing tonight. I hope that he is with my mom is paradise and for real I don’t always believe, but I hope. I do hope.
Thank you! I appreciate it.