Why do I have such a hard time coping with changes in plans/things going wrong?
To try to keep a long story short, I was supposed to present research I had done last summer at a large international conference this weekend. The conference was a ways away, so I had several connecting flights, the last of which ended up being grounded (along with all other flights out of that airport) due to a massive snow storm. Yes, in April. Because I was only going to be at the conference for that one day (today), and because my presentation was in the morning, there was no reason for me to try to get to the city where the conference was. So, I ended up sleeping in the airport and arguing my way onto flights that would get me back home at a reasonable hour.
My reaction to this turn of events has been pretty terrible. I spent a good part of the time stuck in the airport in hysterical tears. In a very public place, no less. I needed my friend, who is a saint and stayed up until 3 am his time because of this, to talk me through the steps I needed to take to get back home. I literally couldn't do it myself, and only part of that inability was due to massive sleep deprivation. My mind spiraled; this one thing going wrong made me seriously want to stop doing everything: research, medical school, being a functioning adult in general.
I'm less distraught now, but I still feel numb and kind of frozen, like I don't know how to get back on track after this derailing. I need to figure out how to contact the conference organizers, because there is a pretty steep penalty for you and your lab if you no-show. I probably should contact the lab I did this research with, which I really don't want to do because I have since stopped working with them because they're terrible, and because I had to fight them tooth and nail to be the person listed as first author on this paper so I could present it at this conference in the first place. Nothing feels real, and I still don't want to have to go to school and do daily life tomorrow with all of this swirling in my head.
I'm sorry if none of that made any sense. Basically, I react this way more often than I'd like, and I want to know what the hell is wrong with me and how I can fix it. Thanks.
Reddit account found by the chans:
https://www.reddit.com/user/creativeaidan
Pages Archived:
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So she was an MD student studying psychiatry 🤦♀️ - AND she also had a teacher breakdown in high school in CT about Sandy Hook 🤨
Inactive for three years, suddenly gets a new post labeled "Please Stop" just a few minutes ago.
Totally organic. Totally.
I wonder if these people are picked up and programmed. Like, based off their post histories.
AND the user deleted the post of the picture of her! Wow this is sloppy AF.
u/creativeaidan
Why do I have such a hard time coping with changes in plans/things going wrong?
To try to keep a long story short, I was supposed to present research I had done last summer at a large international conference this weekend. The conference was a ways away, so I had several connecting flights, the last of which ended up being grounded (along with all other flights out of that airport) due to a massive snow storm. Yes, in April. Because I was only going to be at the conference for that one day (today), and because my presentation was in the morning, there was no reason for me to try to get to the city where the conference was. So, I ended up sleeping in the airport and arguing my way onto flights that would get me back home at a reasonable hour.
My reaction to this turn of events has been pretty terrible. I spent a good part of the time stuck in the airport in hysterical tears. In a very public place, no less. I needed my friend, who is a saint and stayed up until 3 am his time because of this, to talk me through the steps I needed to take to get back home. I literally couldn't do it myself, and only part of that inability was due to massive sleep deprivation. My mind spiraled; this one thing going wrong made me seriously want to stop doing everything: research, medical school, being a functioning adult in general.
I'm less distraught now, but I still feel numb and kind of frozen, like I don't know how to get back on track after this derailing. I need to figure out how to contact the conference organizers, because there is a pretty steep penalty for you and your lab if you no-show. I probably should contact the lab I did this research with, which I really don't want to do because I have since stopped working with them because they're terrible, and because I had to fight them tooth and nail to be the person listed as first author on this paper so I could present it at this conference in the first place. Nothing feels real, and I still don't want to have to go to school and do daily life tomorrow with all of this swirling in my head.
I'm sorry if none of that made any sense. Basically, I react this way more often than I'd like, and I want to know what the hell is wrong with me and how I can fix it. Thanks.
https://www.reddit.com/r/Advice/comments/bii7lj/why_do_i_have_such_a_hard_time_coping_with/
https://archive.is/ynN23
FYI - Person claims he/she is not the shooter -
https://old.reddit.com/user/creativeaidan/comments/1249oh1/please_stop/