I don't drink often, but when I do I get ridiculously drunk, I become a monster. Im surrounded by some of the best people in the world, but I always end up doing or saying something i can hardly deal with the next day, aside from that, they are more than forgiving. I just recently had a bout of this for my birthday. I generally think this is because I bottle my feelings and the only way I know how to release them is by blacking out and throwing a temper tantrum or sobbing. Its crazy because I'm a grown man. I hate it, i actually hate it. Its like I never grew up, a child stuck in an aging body. I tell myself it wont happen again. Then after months i go out for a beer or a drink and wake up embarrassed seeing flashes of this animal mixed with absolutely nothingness. Wondering what i did or said. While not really wanting to know. If any of you are dealing with this or have, what helped? I dont mind if you Share some embarrassing moments you've dealt with or just how to deal with it. Thanks, this place is the only place I know to ask because I don't have anyone else to talk too.
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Good news is it doesn't sound like your going through withdrawals or anything like that. Going months in between drinking is a good sign that you can just cut it out all together. And a good sign that you have the ability to set yourself hard limits ahead of time. Have faith, you can do it.
Yea, it's so hard when all my friends want to go out and have some drinks, and its unbearable to watch, so I either don't go, or go and wake up the next day hating my decision. I wish I could be enjoyable in those environments because they all have a good time and talk about how much fun they had "last weeked" and can't wait to do it again. Wish I was normal ish.
Go out with friends just don't drink alcohol. Get a gingerale or sprite to pretend if you must. There is a type of alcoholism that is binge drinking type. Black outs are a huge warning sign.
I am now understanding this. It's exactly what i deal with. It was always easy to tell myself i wasn't an alcoholic because i seriously hardly drink until im drinking.
It takes a lot of self control, but my close buddy who was a raging alcoholic (Wrecked 2 cars, 1 DUI, had a bottle broken over his face while fighting) was able to quit cold turkey 9 years ago.
I know you don't drink often, but the thing is, my buddy ONLY drinks Mountain Dew when he goes out with people who are drinking. Not sure how he has the self control, but maybe you could promise yourself to only get a soda and see how it goes. It helps that nobody tries to buy him alcohol, so maybe you could text everyone in advance that you are making this commitment to be a better friend and human.
Good luck and God Bless!
Its scary for sure, the shit you do when you're under the influence. I really appreciate the advice and will take it into consideration. Honestly its easy for me to say never again after those kinds of nights i can't even count how many "never agains" it has been.
I get that. You just have to decide what you want more.
Next time your friends invite you out, before going, come make a post about it.