Thank you for checking in. It means a lot. Today was a very hard day. I have noticed a lot more butterflies around and that was one thing they loved. I feel like God is telling me this is going to take a long time and the same as you say, be patient. My wife lost her father when she was young and she's stronger than me in this, but she is still very hurt too. I feel like I'm living in retrograde. It's hard to listen to music or really enjoy anything because I feel guilt when I do. I just think of them and how they loved us so unconditionally and how they didn't deserve to go. I hope i am not distressing you in talking about this. But I am very glad you thought of me.
Darlin, don't worry about distressing me. If I could, I would hug you and your wife....and be aware that many marriages fail after losing a child because we grieve differently. I became active in Compassionate friends, but my husband couldn't face that. Just be aware and seek help. You are facing one of the hardest challenges God asks anyone to face. Ask for help. You can't do this one alone. God bless you, fren.
Oh, and those coincidences I spoke of? I don't share much personal stuff here, but last night, after your response above, I felt a very strong prompting to share some of what I have learned, which comes from the most private and protected place in my heart. Your angels made me do it. On very bad days, you need a hug and your angels will make sure you get one.
Thank you for checking in. It means a lot. Today was a very hard day. I have noticed a lot more butterflies around and that was one thing they loved. I feel like God is telling me this is going to take a long time and the same as you say, be patient. My wife lost her father when she was young and she's stronger than me in this, but she is still very hurt too. I feel like I'm living in retrograde. It's hard to listen to music or really enjoy anything because I feel guilt when I do. I just think of them and how they loved us so unconditionally and how they didn't deserve to go. I hope i am not distressing you in talking about this. But I am very glad you thought of me.
Darlin, don't worry about distressing me. If I could, I would hug you and your wife....and be aware that many marriages fail after losing a child because we grieve differently. I became active in Compassionate friends, but my husband couldn't face that. Just be aware and seek help. You are facing one of the hardest challenges God asks anyone to face. Ask for help. You can't do this one alone. God bless you, fren.
Oh, and those coincidences I spoke of? I don't share much personal stuff here, but last night, after your response above, I felt a very strong prompting to share some of what I have learned, which comes from the most private and protected place in my heart. Your angels made me do it. On very bad days, you need a hug and your angels will make sure you get one.