I really don't know what to think of this.
As many of you know we've been in divorce discussions for over a year. She came to me an hour ago and said "Well, things are getting down to the wire ... and ... honestly... I dont want this ..."
And so I told her I will always love her and I meant all of my vows and that ultimately I just want her to be happy and I dont want her just deciding to be with me and then changing her mind again in a few weeks.
She says that she was thinking that way because of just how hard everything has been on us over the last few years. And as I told her, through sickness and in health, through rich and poor.
She then told me , laughingly, "will you take me back?"
She then proceeded to tell me she wants me to move in with them when they move in the coming weeks. I was like "yeah but we've been sleeping in separate rooms for more than six months now?" and she said "well? we'd have to change that, obviously."
I quite honestly don't know how to take all of this. God got me into this kind of acceptance phase, if you will, and now she hits me with this. So now I'm mentally like, yeah, of course, I love her .... but why did God have me go down that road in the first place?
NO clue what I'm supposed to be doing or if she's going to just change her mind in the coming weeks. But I promised to keep you all updated.
And quite honestly, I really think this is because so many of you have been praying for me. I really do. God is making moves behind the scenes and I'm floored. Today has really honestly felt like I'm in a dream.
EDIT: WE ARE NO LONGER IN SEPARATE ROOMS. She's sleeping in the room with me tonight.
Ya'll... I dont even know what to say. Glory, glory, glory. Hallelujah, this is a true testimony of God's power.
"but why did God have me go down that road"...... maybe that road was for your wife to walk down. It sounds like he carried you. God bless.
I've experienced that feeling too. I've been at peace with things that would normally stress me so I take the time to thank the Lord for whatever his plan is.
Like the Footprints poem…
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord Scenes from my life flashed across the sky, In each, I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints; other times there was only one.
During the lowest times of my life I could see only one set of footprints, so I said, "Lord, you promised me, that you would walk with me always. Why, when I have needed you most would you leave me?"
The Lord replied, "My precious child, I love you and would never leave you. The times when you have seen only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
so powerful. during our conversation, when I asked her what made her suddenly change her mind and come to the conclusion, she said she had been praying a lot and just felt like a light turned on and she saw it all differently. She said she's spent a lot of time reflecting.
you're exactly right
Faith and love SHOULD be challenged. A bridge’s strength is best judged from the other side.
I heard something that stuck with me the other day. A guy was saying a little old woman came up to him and said, "Son, if the mountain was smooth, you wouldn't be able to climb it."
Never heard that one, it's good. Thanks.
This.
You beat me to it!