What do you mean? She moved into her own place.
I've been in our old home now for a week clearing out old crap, taking things to the dump, going to goodwill, cleaning, etc. Like I shared before ... 1.5 years of divorce discussions. Wife suddenly comes to me when she's about to move and says she doesnt want divorce and instead wants me to move there with them and us to all be a family. I was overjoyed, felt like prayers were working. Then while she's gone we're texting, I tell her I'm going to get a planet fitness membership. I get this nice response. Also note that I said "good night" because she previously said good night prior in the next when she was telling me that all I do is lay around (I literally work nearly two jobs so my time off , yeah, I like to lay and relax in bed and watch some tv or read the bible).
Now I have no idea where my life is about to go. Maybe my intuition and my gut on going car camping was correct and she was just trying to pull me out of that, like the matrix or something trying to keep me in this craziness loop.
I don't think I deserve to be with someone who speaks to me like this. Do you? Who says shit like this to a spouse when the other spouse says their ideas and goals?
I didn't respond any further to this text. And now I am, once again, in a position where I have no idea where my life trajectory is heading. What freaking timeline are we on? I feel like I'm going crazy. and honestly I've read that bipolar conditions cause others to feel like they are losing their sanity. Pretty sure that's what I'm up against.
Is it better to just pack my bags and hit the road, never reply again? Like what the heck.
EDIT: NOTE: My lease ends in ONE WEEK and I have NO WHERE to go. She had told me I was moving back in there with her, prior to her moving out (which was nice, because i prayed for us to be back together for over a year now ... but otherwise I was planning on sleeping in my car and doing airbnb). So now I've spent all this time getting this current home ready to vacate. Now all day she's texting me random things like "I've you're going to do XYZ, just don't move in here" (sleep past 9am on my days off because she wants to be "active" and "healthy"). Ya'll. This has come down to the wire. I don't know what the F I'm about to be doing. God help me.
Also, noteworthy, the money I had saved which was to buy myself a rooftop tent and a month's worth of airbnb costs have now gone to HER where she asked I pay the first months rent, which I sent to her. I put a lot of trust in her. I am constantly being misled. God... I don't know. I was just rejoicing two weeks ago about the glory of God and prayer. Why is he u-turning me like this? What am I supposed to gather? WHERE AM I SUPPOSED TO GO. :(
I would not be a fan of a CBDC or an asset that can be controlled, turned off, or censored. I guess i should have written my final portion as "We fully support Bitcoin and announce it will be used to pay off our debts in the very near future" (not possible right now, since the marketcap is too low). Either way, I am in agreement that I would not be interested in something that operates as if it were a CBDC. Fortunately Trump has already said he would never do a CBDC.
I didn't mean to ruffle any feathers, I just wanted to write something fun that talked about tearing down the financial system.
We all know that the current system in place is a complete failure. Whichever route it takes, it does need to be fixed, as it's sincerely hurting many of us.
Trump Jr made the announcement so it prompted me to think of what I wrote.
Source:
https://x.com/DonaldJTrumpJr/status/1821164331020517596
Quote:
"We’re about to shake up the crypto worldwith something HUGE. Decentralized finance is the future—don’t get left behind. #Crypto #DeFi #BeDeFiant"
Because Trump said hours ago he had a very big news announcement coming regarding Bitcoin. It's all over the market right now. That's why I wrote it.
Oh come on, fellow frien, I took a decent amount of time writing that
I've heard yandex as well
I understand your concern. I really do, because I've been in relationships like this.
This is not her. There is no chad. There is nobody.
(I have my sources :)
You're right. God has created the life you have to live the life you have. Each of us end up with a testimony. This will become my testimony. He does always want the best. It's difficult to see that, sometimes, as we are walking through the fire. But he always goes before us.
Oh goodness, no. We've been sleeping in separate rooms, however. But now we are sleeping in the same room again :) Prayers to that individual going through that. After going through this, I have faith God will bring him through it.
Very true. This has absolutely strengthened my faith. I cant even say 100%, it's like a million percent. I used to joke about people who said "one hundred and ten percent" and now i understand it lol. I feel completely strengthened by Christ.
I told her today.She said "you talked about this on the internet?" and I said "I needed some kind of outlet...". Then I told her about the outpour of the community here and the prayer and she said, and I quote, "Praise Jesus, he continues to provide..." then she paused, sighed, and went totally silent. I'm kind of dumbfonded. SHe's always been Chrirstian but has not been supportive of our relationship so this has all been really crazy.
Completely agree
He sincerely is. This was him showing me just how good he is.
Glory glory!
Amen thank you
Gosh that was beautiful
Thank you friend. I love this verse too, thanks for sharing it.
was thinking the same >.>
Honestly I wasn't sure how to approach it so I didnt Lol. Was aaalllmost going to be like "soooo... you down?" then decided eh... I'll wait. Maybe she'll approach lol.
Amen! definitely a breakthrough.
What's interesting is this has really changed my character. I'm taking more 'charge' now of things.
This is kind of off topic and random but, for example, today, I said enough is enough and I called a meeting with leadership at work. I came prepared with all of the things I've done to transform the company over the last year and asked why, since I am eligible, have I not received a raise.
Of course they talked in circles and never gave an answer - at which point I respectively told them that I want this reviewed and made effective by next week.
Felt pretty good, honestly, to take a stand for myself. And when they said "we don't review integrity, we review data", I was able to say "so data is more important than the quality, compassion, and righteousness of your employees? So you are literally saying its numbers over people?" They looked almost shocked that I made that statement.
I think for too long I've been quiet and have been very pushover-ish. This has made me into a leader with a different mindset and a different approach at everything.
I believe she saw this in me as well.
Side note: Been at my company nearly a year, no raise, piddly pay, now they moved me to an account manager role with NO raise but new added responsibilities. Total sham.
And you wouldn't believe who my leadership team is comprised of. They're all DEI purple hair type people. I am starting to feel like I have a discrimination lawsuit on my hands ... but this is me going way off topic.
Anyway - thank you for the comforting words!
Thank you so much. You, and so many others on here, who sent up prayers, are what helped. I really do believe that. The Bible tells us clearly that when two or more come into agreement over something, He will be there, and so it shall be.
I really think posting on here affected all this. She has seemed like a completely different person. Literally questioned myself and wondered if I'm living in "The Shift" movie and my wife just got shifted back to me lol
well said, very true
Amen. I agree marriages are being attacked heavily by Satan. I pray for you and your husband.
Thank you friend. will head to the beach tomorrow when I wake