Hello fellow patriots!
I know this has been hard for all of us, but these past few weeks have been torture. Little background on me so you understand my current predicament.
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32 year old, that only realized career wasn't everything a few years ago, working my way up the corporate ladder, and realized I wanted a family
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98% of the staff at my company are Liberals (my fault, I picked a Liberal Industry) so I've spent the past 5 years listening to my staff spew nonsense, and think I'm crazy
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Since my promotion, I have been asked to refrain from talking about Covid and masks with employees, they think I am crazy
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I've recently come to terms with the fact that I am an addict (adderall, alcohol, nicotine, gambling, caffeine, eating problems…I'm a mess)
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My uncle got the 2nd Pfizer vaccine in April, died 2 days later of a heart attack, and my fam thought I was crazy when I told them he died from the vaccine, and they proceeded to get the vaccine
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I had a break down, broke up with my boyfriend of 8 years, quit drinking, and moved in with my aunt
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Work has been overwhelmed this summer with everyone traveling, and the minimum wage increase has made it impossible to keep staff
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I've been keeping up hope, but last week was rough. Life has been throwing everything at me to try to make me cave, and I had a breakdown, and considered quitting my job
**Present Time:
My boss pulled me into a meeting and said my company would pay for me to go to Rehab for a month.
-30 Days to unplug sounds magical, but will it get me on a crazy list?
-I said I wouldn't do vax or masks or bloodwork, but am I walking into a cell?
-Would this be me giving up? I can get sober myself, this just seems much easier…
-We all know something is happening, I've made it this far, would this be tapping out right when things start getting good?
-Should I just go for the free vaca and interesting people?
I have no idea what to do so any and all advice is appreciated!**
P.S. Thank you all! I don't post much, but I read constantly. This place has gotten me through some dark times, and it gave me comfort to know I wasn't going through this alone! WWG1WGA
God can heal, pray for release of these demons. https://lindellrecoverynetwork.org/
Just deleted my repeat post. But this content from Mike Lindell may be beneficial.
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Nothing is free. Carefully check the strings attached to the rehab / free vaca.
Go for the rehab. Interview more than one place. Look at reviews, ask for references (successful graduates) and call one or two. Consider paying a portion yourself for an upgrade, if you find one that's worth it.
Sounds like you have a lot of stress, and that at least some of those sources of stress will be lessened by taking time off. It's nice that the folks in control at your company care enough to offer it to you.
It's not giving up. It's trying a different environment. You'll never know if that's good or bad unless you give it a shot. Crazy is as crazy does. I'm sure you're capable of crazy, but getting help is not crazy. Many busy professionals have ulcers or heart attacks; others meditate, or have a discipline of taking vacations or other non-work activities. What do you have to lose? Give it a shot: if it doesn't work, you can still quit later if that's best for you.
Don't let people around you call you crazy.. find new people..
You got this.
Take the help, but stick to your values.
They need your help too 🙏🏻❤️
A short poem:
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Video (2 min) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xT6rQCtubHo
You're so right when you say " We have the weight of the world on us" it so seems that way and it seems to be getting heavier day by day. Sometimes I feel like when my mom passed away. Feb 2016 For like a year, I would see other people going on about their lives, laughing, enjoying, talking like they had no idea that my heart was broken ,that I lost the one thing that connected me to this place. How do they not see ,how dare them be so normal, so happy!! Finally slowly that feeling faded over the next couple of years. In 2020, when I started to see what was really going on in this country/world I felt like the days before she died. Now I feel like I did when she died.. I have that broken heart again, that loss, and I look around and I see these people living in oblivion and seemingly not a care in the world. And again , I say to myself Don't they know? Don't they see? How could they not see that what's going on?? I so feel like I am in mourning of the biggest lose in my life again and I need can't fix it , but I can't. Thank God for this group and The wins!!
This may be a horrible thing on your medical record for future work and insurance
Pray, Pray and pray more. Although I was not an addict, due to health issues and the state of our world, very depressed but introducing myself to the lord, praying and reading the bible has helped me tremendously. One of my siblings went to rehab and I think it is BS but that is just me. He finally did get clean, I just don't think 30 days is long enough. I think that depends on the addiction. As another pede suggested looking into Mike Lindell's story may be inspiration.
Addiction is very common. I heard really great things about AA, if you already quit maybe try that. If you research the rehab facility and it looks good, I don't see why not to, though. You do have access to your phone there, you can read the news, it's not prison. Stay strong, fren, you can beat this!
Make sure your rehab isn't in a FEMA fun camp!
Do you get to choose which rehab you attend? Will your employer document your participation in such a program? I ask because a record of such things will be used in the future to determine whether or not you can get a gun license (if that's important to you) and God only knows what other things.
Your health, mental & physical come first. I just want for you to be able to choose the option with the least damaging effect on your future endeavors.
Listen, my family thinks I'm crazy as well. You are not crazy. You are awake. A gift that we on this site have received. You were smart enough to break through the programming. You are strong enough to break through thought-control/brainwashing. You have the ability in you to break the habits that chain you. Rehab would definitely help, but nothing helps like Jesus. Not to be preachy, but Jesus is the only thing that could change me. I'm your age, I have struggled as you are now. You can break the cycle. Go to rehab if the opportunity strikes you as something that could truly benefit you. You owe it to yourself to take the mental break. Wishing you success. 🙏
Came here to say this! ☝🏻 My Dad, Mike Lindell, and many other people would be the first to tell you that Jesus is the best help and rehab for addiction. It sounds like a cliche but it’s true. However, I also agree with what other people have said about researching rehabs, as well as AA, and seeing what exactly would be on your record for employment and most importantly a gun. If I was a single woman, not being able to own a firearm would be the number 1 reason for me to try and find a different alternative to rehab. But that’s just me. If you decide not to go to rehab and try to go it alone I would be careful about stopping any prescription drugs cold turkey and maybe do some research about that as well. I’m not a doctor so that isn’t medical advice, I’ve just heard that certain prescription drugs can be dangerous to just stop taking but I don’t know if that applies in your situation. I’ll be praying for you that God gives you wisdom in making your decision and strength for whichever path you choose!! 🙏🏻
☝️ This. Well said. Praying for you OP. Find your inner strength. 🙏
From experience.
Find what you love to do.
Do it well.
Do it for yourself.
A true sense of accomplishment will work wonders. It doesn't have to be anything elaborate. Simple starts lead to many things.
Example...
Build kites and sell them on the beach. Just get a book, a real book. Learn how to do it. Do it well. And watch what happens.
Keep it simple. Cash only. No social media of any kind, ever.
Live only in the real, tangible world.
And, oh yeah, sunscreen...
https://youtu.be/sTJ7AzBIJoI
Look into Mike Lindell’s program I heard him say at least some portion of it is no charge.