No lol you aren't a whimp. You're psychologically attuned to chaos. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing, you have the gift of being sensitive to vibrational frequencies, but it may be that your mind is interpreting them in a confusing manner. That's typical to be honest, and takes time to work through. Chaos isn't evil, it's just a state of disorder. Evil needs order to function, that's why I've said many times that the greatest enemy of evil is not good, but chaos. I hope you are doing well and message me any time if you need someone to talk to that you may think others may not understand.

What's transpired with others within these past years for others already happened to me after 9/11 (I was twelve then). So for me, it's not so much of a full body and spirit transformation as it is an attenuation to a much more chaotic realm that others perceive, whereas I don't, since I predicted at some point it would have to happen. I didnt know how it would, but to keep in balance, it was inevitable. I just wish we could have done this without so many casualties, but that's how unwilling some were to understand that we can't live in a binary system of beliefs.