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I’ve had this underlying level of stress and apathy going on for a long time now. I’m turing 30 this year and I have no meaningful signs of success someone my age should have by now. Despite being told by family and a few acquaintances that I’m “good people”, a “genuine kind/old soul”, or “very wise for my age” and how smart I am; I have no serious relationships with either friends nor any partners. Almost nobody ever calls or texts me for anything, and I’m the one who always has to set up meetings that almost never happen anyways. My own fucking sister never speaks to me or our dad. I can’t ever seem to hold down a job for very long. I’m lucky to hold a job for a year, let alone 6 months. The endless cycle of finding a job, stressing to adapt and keep that job, losing that job and feeling worthlessness for months, only to start the cycle again has been exhausting. I have dreams and aspirations I want to pursue, but I don’t ever have the focus, energy, discipline, or motivation to stick to them and it drives me crazy. I try to find some kind of joy in my relative isolation and lonerism, but it feels like it’s less of a choice and more of a personal obstacle that keeps me from making real connections with others. People hover around me for a while, than they just disappear and never reach out again unless they can get something out of it from me. I’m just tired now, emotionally and mentally so, and deeply terrified that my life will be like this bazaar existential hell forever, where I don’t really fit in anywhere with anyone, my wants and dreams will always remain in a mist, and I’ll be alone forever in a world that’s only growing more ugly and alienating every year.
Aww fren I know it's not exactly what u are looking for but I am sending my love your way along with a 🤗 hug. Wish I could give u a real hug and just chill with u.
I can relate to that feeling you have friend. The feeling of loneliness and not fitting in. We are often our own worst enemies. I got kicked out of Marines for drugs and battled myself for 10 years as I drove head first into meth and heroin. Only by the Grace of God was I set free. So let's start there. Do u have any sort of spiritual life. Or did u grow up with Christ in your house at all? Where do u currently stand on Jesus Christ.
My name is Ryan and I will be your friend. Would u be ok if I reached out to you daily so we could maybe get to know each other better, or even just continue talking with but keep stuff vague. I will never push u to reveal anything u don't want to. God has just called me to put myself out there so I felt led to atleast put the offer out there. We can talk in PM or on another app, or even in text if u feel led to go that route. No pressure either way. I look forward to talking more with u and want u to know I love u but most of all Jesus loves u. Truly when u take Jesus away from me I am very much the same as u in many ways. Although we all are unique as well. Feel free to lay your troubles out before me brother(?) I wanna be that friendly ear that can help however u need it.
I Know how that is. I never felt like I fit in. I had adhd as a child, still do, but I don't really call it that... lol ... another story. I drank and partied alllll the time. In fact from probably age 14 to 48. I regret a lot of things, but learned to forgive myself. I found God (Not that He was Lost) I love to joke around. I am still learning about God, Jesus, and everything. I am still fighting the Battlefield of the Mind, but it is just not as bad.
Oh man…… I feel ya but keep pressing on. Don’t give up and find something that motivates you. I got out of prison at 30. Had a hurt back and no real skill set in 2008 during the recession. Thank God! That’s about all I can say. And change is always going to happen. It’s the only thing that don’t change. My brothers and sisters have a busy life and I rarely talk with them. Sucks when someone don’t feel the same way but find something you like or want to learn and keep busy and Keep your head up and keep trying to get through each crazy day. Hang in and hang on. Will be praying for you daily. You can do anything you put your heart and mind in to
Wow powerful testimony u have fren. Thanks for sharing it with us. God bless u. Much love
Go to church.
Try it. Get involved. Honestly. You might be surprised.
You have time. I turn 40. When I do I will be more physically fit then at 30. I have a decent job but am working on financial freedom. Why find a job? Create jobs. Build a business. You can do it. We will win fren.
You seem to be on the edge of realization.
None of what you say is true. That the way you see yourself and the world disgusts you may mean that the illusion that is depressing you is about to fall away.
Here's a bit of help. The perceiver inside you, itself, cannot be perceived. What is perceived is not the perceiver.
So what?
Well, the perceiver is the most intimate - is you. You cannot perceive yourself.
What then are you?