I don't know what to do anymore. I have been unemployed for six months. I have applied for hundreds of jobs and I start a part time minimum wage job soon. So I cashed out my 401k to get a car to get to said job, but that broke down 3 days later.
My family thinks I am lazy so they don't want to give me rides anymore. I tried to walk to get groceries but that's exhausting, I have four young kids we need a lot of stuff.
I built my dream home on the family farm so I have almost no bills. But I don't know what to do. I just feel hopeless. If I move to a job I would have to pay thousands more a month for rent but I am broke. My husband is deeply depressed so he definitely can't help with anything. My family wants me to kick him out and marry a rich guy but that seems like a terribly immortal thing to do.
I've always believed that when God closes a door he opens a window but I can't find a way out of this.
My husband is against taking more pills. I've tried a few things vitamin d, iodine and a few others. I garden and had him in an all home grown plant diet for a few months Then did carnivore for a few months, until I lost my job. Nothing seems to help him.
He used to play way to much video games. I got super mad and told him he has to stop, cause we are screwed, like two months ago. He got into reading and sleeps way too much.
My old car the transmission broke. The new one the electric dies randomly. The repair man can't figure out why.
Maybe it is time to tell him to leave.
Maybe that is the motivation he needs.
I did tell him to leave. I hope it's motivating. But it's what the kids need.
Doctors normally say that moving your big muscles and getting out in the sunshine also helps a great deal with depression.
I'll tell you one thing that helped my chronic depression which I had when I was younger, facing up to the real truth about the world and how shitty it is actually helped my depression. I stopped focusing on myself and a lot of the cognitive dissonance which I had from subconsciously disbelieving the mainstream media disappeared.
Darn those electrical problems in cars.
Maybe at least get him a fishing pole. You can still get your meat and he can reconnect with God and do what needs to be done for the family.
It might be the case that depression is not from low serotonin like we are told, but more so either low dopamine or low total available energy, often as a result of chronic stress.
If that is the case, it make sense that people with it get addicted to video games or books, because the brain is desperate to either get a dopamine hit or withdraw from life stresses.
This guy has a lot of interesting ideas on depression. Some of them are pretty easy: daylight for the eyes, D and B vitamins, gelatin or collagen peptides and sugar or honey.