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posted ago by justmcd ago by justmcd +100 / -0

I always said, "I may not be a good Christian, but I am a Christian!"

I was so wrong. I wan't a Christian. I used the title to fool myself. Like I could fool God, who knows my heart. I was the fool.

Charlie Kirk woke me up. My wife said there was hate in her heart for past wrongs from others. I said we need to heal. We need Jesus in our lives.

We went to church. We listened. Someone on this board gave me great advice - "Don't talk. Listen." I mentioned that to a friend - a truly Christian gentleman. He told me, that being me, I had to have a snarky comment in there from time to time - I said I needed to learn to be humble. My Bible reading the next morning was 1 Corinthians 1:31: Therefore as it is written: "Let the one who boasts, boasts in the Lord."

My father-in-law, a godly man and a man I admire, passed this morning. My wife left last week for Texas to be with him, to comfort him in his final mortal journey; I stayed here with our son and to look after the home, but my heart traveled with her. Yesterday, we prayed together - it was the first time we had actually prayed as a family. My morning reading today was the 23rd Psalm, a reading that is typically recited at the grave, in our region. A half hour later, she called to say he had just passed.

These are just two of many times over the past few months that I believe God has spoken to me, to lay aside my pride and accept Him as my Lord and Savior. My Awakening is a marvel! I was baptised 3 weeks ago, I have received communion and felt its meaning for the first time; my heart is at peace. I hope this is not babbling to you - I hope it makes sense. My heart and soul have been touched by something greater than I can totally comprehend, and I wanted to share it with you. Peace, frens.