I’ll save your ramble for sure. It made very sense to me what you have written here. So much I would like to read it again from time to time.
**Definitely this part: **
The first or sometimes even second or third wave of emotions can often be broken down within reason, causes identified, consequences analyzed, benefits assessed by my inner self. It's a part of me that I hope is more or less not affected by strong emotions and can analyze an internal state more clearly. It's not perfect, but it has prevented me from acting irrationally, especially when dealing with other people and the events that is happening around us.
Thanks Fren!
God bless you fren!