I could work myself to physical exhaustoon. I dont care. I can rest when im dead. Its my girlfriend i fear for. Her family (direct and extended) all stopped caring about her. She comes from a very narcissistic family and she's the black sheep, (or rather the white in an all black herd?). So if I'm gone, she's gone.
You think Job didnt want to fall asleep and it all be ovee? Instead he kept his faith to the lord, took his suffering and was rewarded tenfold