Turn to God, He will help you overcome all pain that this world has dealt you. Empathy at times can be crippling but still it is a gift many people will never know. May God bless you friend and know you are not alone.
Frustration, anger, heartache, fury... And every good, innocent person that gets harmed or killed by these beasts (like gwb in this video) is like more salt in the wound, more fuel on the fire. Your memories of your losses gnaw at your very soul, of course, because if you knew then what you now know you would not have been participating. As I've told many people, you warriors (vets and current) deserve the respect and honor for your courage, bravery, good intentions and inner fortitude regardless of what the scum-sucking politicians and other DS beasts have set into motion.
These beasts have killed millions, perhaps billions, of good, decent people over the centuries and for perhaps the first time ever we have the ability to shine the light on them and expose this evil. They will be ended or at least beaten back underground for decades to come. Your child(ren) will have a much better world to grow up and thrive in, your grandchildren after them.
You've gone through a storm that has personally cost you dearly, but you've survived. And now you see and understand, have developed a clearer perspective. Let your history be a source of strength for you, experiences that forge you into a stronger person. You can also, in the future, share some of your perspectives with others, and I hope you will. Your friends in the military who lost their earthly lives live on in your heart and the hearts of their other loved ones - with all the honor, friendship and love they've earned from their time on this earth. I do believe that many people, yourself included, were led here for a reason.
I know this is taking a long time to "resolve" as we all want this horrible worldwide situation to have ended a long time ago, good people the world over to have their suffering ended, the perpetrators in the ground and suffering the Lord's vengeance for an eternity, but the tide has turned and matters need to be taken care of strategically. The people on the front lines of dismantling this heinous web of terror have all the details; we don't.
Finally, as several others here have suggested, bring your agony to God and ask Him for His grace and peace. The times that I've beseeched Him during overwhelming turmoil in my life He has graced me with an almost unfathomable inner peace. I wish the same for you, friend. May God bless you and comfort you in your time of inner turmoil. 🙏✝️✨
Thank you for the kind and heartfelt words, fren. I teared up just reading them, but you are ABSOLUTELY CORRECT. I do what I do know for my own grand kiddos. I have two grand sons now. And I refuse to let them inherit a shit hole if I have anything to say over the matter, which, we all do.
I'm not sure why I wrote what I did this morning, other than that I was hurting as all those emotions and memories cam flooding back with a vengeance.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart, anon. If you ever find yourself in Central FL, DM me, as I'd like to meet you in person. Your words truly helped me here, and for that, I am eternally grateful.
I'm glad I could help. I hate to see/hear good people going through hardship and stress. This is an incredibly difficult time period to be going through, just knowing what we do and seeing what's going on around us, with our loved ones and even good people halfway across the world. I wouldn't trade it for the comfort of ignorance. For the first time so many things finally make sense. If we can keep our cool/patience, be prepared if called upon to act and survive the coming storm, we're going to witness a most amazing, positive transformation of this country and this world into something that's beyond what we've experienced to date. God wants me here on this site at this period in history for a reason and He wants you and many others here as well. We'll get through this. Have faith.
We don’t always know our journey but in the end you’ll look back and know you had to go through it to get to where you are. Today, ask god to send the Holy Spirit to wrap his arms around you! Hugs fren
Everything we've all been through in our lives has been in preparation for this historical event. I know this. But it doesn't make the pain any easier to bear.
I've had a rough life, even before adulthood. I swore then I'd never be prey again, only now, I'm learning that we've all been pret this whole time.
What's been hardest for me and others like me is that we have all this training that we gathered in our time in, but we can't use it because that would be terroristic and possibly make matters worse for The Plan in general. And it makes me feel helpless, as a result.
I cannot stand to feel helpless. I felt that way as a child being sexually abused and swore to myself then that I'd find the training to never feel that way again. For a time that worked, but now, I feel helpless again. Like a fucking 8 yr old boy all over again. And it sucks.
I burned mine. It helped...some. For the most part, I've done a good job of leaving and not looking back. But I now have a 19 yr old son who wants to be a fucking Airborne Ranger, of all things. And, try as I might, I can't get him to see reason and shake that damn dream of his. And it scares the living shit out of me.
It brings up the notion of "You can show the people, but sometimes, they have to see for themselves." Only, I don't want him to see that part. I know I have no say, per se, but it still scares me.
Ah, but you’re not helpless! I’ve come to respect many of your replies and you’ve taught me or guided me in directions unknowingly. If you’ve led me, I’m sure there are plenty of others. My BIL is a vet and though, he’s not able to express himself as well as you, his anger and frustration bubbles over as well. You should perhaps change perspective with your son. I have boys around his age and as a mother, I know the fear of trying to keep your children safe. There is no doubt in my mind, he is only wanting to be a man like his father. Take pride in that. When our children admire, respect, and even want to be like us, there is no better form of flattery.
I agree that we all found our way here through a divine reason. There’s no doubt in my mind that when it all happens, we will be the ones to answer, take charge, and lead. I even have a theory that the men and women in the military that stood their ground and didn’t get jabbed will become the next military leaders. You are not helpless in any of this, you have probably done more than you know! Thank you for everything you’ve done then and now!
Maybe I should've expanded on the pain I feel now. I'm fully recovered. And I've made my peace with the opiate thing. I've been sober for almost 2 decades now. It wasn't my addiction that helped lead to the marriage to fall apart. It was the ex's. I kicked that shit's ass while I was still in the Navy. Got addicted to it after my back fusion. And had to quit cold turkey because if you admit to an addiction, I he military will get you help, but then unceremoniously boot your ass out with either a General or an Other Than Honorable Discharge, as long as you didn't cause any legal issues while addicted.
That song and video brought back some pretty awful memories of that whole escapade, and also reminded me of how many Veteran Brothers and Sisters I've lost to those two fake ass wars, the combat PTSD I incurred as a result of those wars, and the suicides it caused. My unit, to date, has lost more guys to suicide after the fact then we ever lost in country.
This is the pain that resurfaced all of a sudden. And it was overwhelming. Like a steam roller.
Prayers for you, OP....
It's a Scotty Mar10 video featuring Tyler Childers' Nose on the Grindstone
May God have Mercy on America's Soul.
Edit: I'm struggling mighty hard today, frens. The bottle of emotions has uncorked and I can't put it back.
This sucks.
Turn to God, He will help you overcome all pain that this world has dealt you. Empathy at times can be crippling but still it is a gift many people will never know. May God bless you friend and know you are not alone.
I have. We have a great relationship. But even He can't keep the memories and nightmares at bay.
Frustration, anger, heartache, fury... And every good, innocent person that gets harmed or killed by these beasts (like gwb in this video) is like more salt in the wound, more fuel on the fire. Your memories of your losses gnaw at your very soul, of course, because if you knew then what you now know you would not have been participating. As I've told many people, you warriors (vets and current) deserve the respect and honor for your courage, bravery, good intentions and inner fortitude regardless of what the scum-sucking politicians and other DS beasts have set into motion.
These beasts have killed millions, perhaps billions, of good, decent people over the centuries and for perhaps the first time ever we have the ability to shine the light on them and expose this evil. They will be ended or at least beaten back underground for decades to come. Your child(ren) will have a much better world to grow up and thrive in, your grandchildren after them.
You've gone through a storm that has personally cost you dearly, but you've survived. And now you see and understand, have developed a clearer perspective. Let your history be a source of strength for you, experiences that forge you into a stronger person. You can also, in the future, share some of your perspectives with others, and I hope you will. Your friends in the military who lost their earthly lives live on in your heart and the hearts of their other loved ones - with all the honor, friendship and love they've earned from their time on this earth. I do believe that many people, yourself included, were led here for a reason.
I know this is taking a long time to "resolve" as we all want this horrible worldwide situation to have ended a long time ago, good people the world over to have their suffering ended, the perpetrators in the ground and suffering the Lord's vengeance for an eternity, but the tide has turned and matters need to be taken care of strategically. The people on the front lines of dismantling this heinous web of terror have all the details; we don't.
Finally, as several others here have suggested, bring your agony to God and ask Him for His grace and peace. The times that I've beseeched Him during overwhelming turmoil in my life He has graced me with an almost unfathomable inner peace. I wish the same for you, friend. May God bless you and comfort you in your time of inner turmoil. 🙏✝️✨
Thank you for the kind and heartfelt words, fren. I teared up just reading them, but you are ABSOLUTELY CORRECT. I do what I do know for my own grand kiddos. I have two grand sons now. And I refuse to let them inherit a shit hole if I have anything to say over the matter, which, we all do.
I'm not sure why I wrote what I did this morning, other than that I was hurting as all those emotions and memories cam flooding back with a vengeance.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart, anon. If you ever find yourself in Central FL, DM me, as I'd like to meet you in person. Your words truly helped me here, and for that, I am eternally grateful.
I'm glad I could help. I hate to see/hear good people going through hardship and stress. This is an incredibly difficult time period to be going through, just knowing what we do and seeing what's going on around us, with our loved ones and even good people halfway across the world. I wouldn't trade it for the comfort of ignorance. For the first time so many things finally make sense. If we can keep our cool/patience, be prepared if called upon to act and survive the coming storm, we're going to witness a most amazing, positive transformation of this country and this world into something that's beyond what we've experienced to date. God wants me here on this site at this period in history for a reason and He wants you and many others here as well. We'll get through this. Have faith.
We are with you, friend. Sending love and support! DM if you need to talk.
This is heartbreaking. I believed the sob.
We all did.
We don’t always know our journey but in the end you’ll look back and know you had to go through it to get to where you are. Today, ask god to send the Holy Spirit to wrap his arms around you! Hugs fren
Everything we've all been through in our lives has been in preparation for this historical event. I know this. But it doesn't make the pain any easier to bear.
I've had a rough life, even before adulthood. I swore then I'd never be prey again, only now, I'm learning that we've all been pret this whole time.
What's been hardest for me and others like me is that we have all this training that we gathered in our time in, but we can't use it because that would be terroristic and possibly make matters worse for The Plan in general. And it makes me feel helpless, as a result.
I cannot stand to feel helpless. I felt that way as a child being sexually abused and swore to myself then that I'd find the training to never feel that way again. For a time that worked, but now, I feel helpless again. Like a fucking 8 yr old boy all over again. And it sucks.
I do. Because I can't help it. It just comes out.
Thank you.
Trust in the Lord. Just remember HE is with you. Prayers going out to you my friend.
I do. We have a great relationship. But sometimes, the feelings and memories come flooding back and I'm completely helpless to stop it.
I burned mine. It helped...some. For the most part, I've done a good job of leaving and not looking back. But I now have a 19 yr old son who wants to be a fucking Airborne Ranger, of all things. And, try as I might, I can't get him to see reason and shake that damn dream of his. And it scares the living shit out of me.
It brings up the notion of "You can show the people, but sometimes, they have to see for themselves." Only, I don't want him to see that part. I know I have no say, per se, but it still scares me.
Ah, but you’re not helpless! I’ve come to respect many of your replies and you’ve taught me or guided me in directions unknowingly. If you’ve led me, I’m sure there are plenty of others. My BIL is a vet and though, he’s not able to express himself as well as you, his anger and frustration bubbles over as well. You should perhaps change perspective with your son. I have boys around his age and as a mother, I know the fear of trying to keep your children safe. There is no doubt in my mind, he is only wanting to be a man like his father. Take pride in that. When our children admire, respect, and even want to be like us, there is no better form of flattery.
I agree that we all found our way here through a divine reason. There’s no doubt in my mind that when it all happens, we will be the ones to answer, take charge, and lead. I even have a theory that the men and women in the military that stood their ground and didn’t get jabbed will become the next military leaders. You are not helpless in any of this, you have probably done more than you know! Thank you for everything you’ve done then and now!
Just hang on, fren. One way or another, we'll make this right.
Go find a Celebrate Recovery program and jump in with both feet.
Maybe I should've expanded on the pain I feel now. I'm fully recovered. And I've made my peace with the opiate thing. I've been sober for almost 2 decades now. It wasn't my addiction that helped lead to the marriage to fall apart. It was the ex's. I kicked that shit's ass while I was still in the Navy. Got addicted to it after my back fusion. And had to quit cold turkey because if you admit to an addiction, I he military will get you help, but then unceremoniously boot your ass out with either a General or an Other Than Honorable Discharge, as long as you didn't cause any legal issues while addicted.
That song and video brought back some pretty awful memories of that whole escapade, and also reminded me of how many Veteran Brothers and Sisters I've lost to those two fake ass wars, the combat PTSD I incurred as a result of those wars, and the suicides it caused. My unit, to date, has lost more guys to suicide after the fact then we ever lost in country.
This is the pain that resurfaced all of a sudden. And it was overwhelming. Like a steam roller.
I appreciate you opening your heart to tell the truth. Thank you.