A part of me wishes I had never woken up. It's all so tiring sometimes. I'm surrounded by sheep and cowards. I don't even know what I'm trying to say. I'm tired.
EDIT: Thank you, to everyone, for your words of encouragement. Last night, my mind was spinning, and I couldn't find the right words. I'm clearer now, so let me elaborate.
Yesterday, I took a stand. I stood and loudly proclaimed that this has gone too far. The scamdemic nonsense has to stop, and I refused to wear a mask. It's a small thing, I know, but the brainwashed masses need to see people standing up. A friend and co-worker who was with me, a man who I thought to be strong and who I assumed would stand with me, folded. He meekly put his mask on and said nothing. It was immensely disheartening. I just needed to vent to some people that would understand. Thank you, and God bless you all.
I've been awake for 37 years a lot of you are just now catching up to me.
I try to think of people as lost instead of as a sheep and a coward Remember the Shepherd will go after the one lost sheep. Try changing your view on the world and on people and it will help a lot. Be thankful for what you have be thankful that you're awake. Although if you're thinking of people as sheep and cowards and maybe you're not as awake as you think.
I too am surrounded by sheep and cowards. Even my atheist, vaccinated husband who threatened to divorce me over not vaccinating our children (still unvaxxed, praise god!) is now praying and making online videos about Gods love. He also just took ivermectin and sent me some studies about how it works. Have faith, miracles do happen. The battle belongs to God. I recommend praying and meditating often. Start going to church if you don’t already, you’ll find awake people there. When we’re all awake we create a new level of being and consciousness that is beautiful beyond comprehension.
Some of us don't have the option of going to Church. I live in New Brunswick Canada. The 'Bible belt'. All Churches are closed. Even when they were open for a bit, you had to be masked and then 'vaccinated' and masked.
I’m sorry to hear that. Can you do online church? There are many US churches that stream their services every Sunday morning. Many have chats where you can connect with the community in real time. Could be an interesting way to build connections to exit Canada.
I would only question the motives behind many online churches, except local. Don't utilized any "MSM" mega churches. They are as satanic as the catholic church. Not the people that follow them, but the leaders.
I wish I knew a good online church to send you too - I am lucky to have a very good sense of faith from my Baptist upbringing, and use a Bible app that helps me take time each day to read passages. I can read them in any version also, which helps to discern the application of meaning from different sources of interpretation. I then just meditate on that day's verse.
The Bible App is what I use, made by Youversion.
I am a sinner. And thank the Father above for forgiving me my transgressions. I sincerely look to Him for guidance, not mankind.
Praying for you to find a good source of community and spiritual awareness in Jesus and his father, Our King!
He doesn't want to remember nothing. Nothing, understand? And he wants to be rich. Someone important.
?! What are you talking about ?!
It's a quote from The Matrix.
Oh, ya. sorry,
Lmao. It's fine.
"Like an actor"
Like an actor... hahaha
"I'm surrounded by sheep and cowards"
Yes, yes you probably are.
I rely on ego to carry me, and brother let me tell you, it's getting funner and funner to mock these tards publicly.
How do I do it? I give no fucks and say what's on my mind. Try that.
I try to smile and remember that Jesus loves me.
Seems to do the trick every time.
Some days I feel this way too. I wish that there was nothing to 'wake up' to. I wish the world wasn't as bad as we now know it to be but it is, and once you're awake , it can't be undone. I'm surrounded by sheep and cowards too, as most of us are. It's a struggle each day to keep going. I'm exhausted from the whole thing as well but we don't have a choice but to hold on and hold the line. There are MILLIONS of us even though it feels like we're alone. Evil has been running things for a long time but it will come to an end. Either way, we can say that we stood. Sometimes strong and sometimes weak but we STOOD and held the LINE.
take comfort in knowing God is in control
After 12+ years of my wife thinking I was insane, the past 3 years she is fully awakened. Now her family is beginning to wake up. All of our neighbors are waking up. I don't mind being their lighthouse - been doing this for 20+ years.
However, when you feel frustrated, tired, mentally exhausted... there is no shame in taking a break and recharging. Even if you only come back part time. There is no going back to sleep. Even if you could, you'd just be pretending and you would hate every second of it.
Take a trip. Go on a long hike. Enjoy some wine by a fire. Go to the beach and drink 4 margaritas. Whatever it takes to let your mind spin down... We all need that every so often.
If your body is tired, fren, try to rest.
If your mind cannot rest, try to (moderately) exercise.
Spend each first hour after waking offline.
Focus on your sphere of influence (as opposed to concerning issues outside your direct influence).
Good advice. Also .. try to get out into nature, fresh air and it helps put things in perspective.
I’ve been awake for a good 15 years....I’ll take knowing over ignorance any day. Get some popcorn. 🙏🏻❤️🍿
I'm addicted to the news cycle, it probably isnt healthy. The Salty livestreams give me great joy, keep your head up we are happy warriors and we are winning!
His lefty impersonations to cheer me up sometimes :)
Nobody said it would be easy fren. It's worth it, though. Imagine being asleep to this when the s__t really hits the fan. Most people are going to lose it entirely.
All of us need to be ready for the real challenge - deprogramming people whose world is soon to be turned inside out & upside down. We need to help guide such poor souls who are currently lost back to the light.
Faith in God helps in this time, or it has helped me significantly. I would be at sea still without Him.
I got over that hump about a year ago. It gets easier fren. Just keeps to yourself more than you want to and drop seeds here and there. Eventually something’s sprouts.
So let's get the job done so someone, maybe our children or grandchildren, don't have to deal with this shit.
fuck go take a nap and bring down the people in your dreams. baby.
This is by far the most resonating song for this feeling
https://youtu.be/rJKwi5Mn46Q
“All men, inasmuch as they are not liberated from the bondage of time, follow the downward path of history, whether they know it or not and whether they like it or not. Few, indeed, thoroughly like it, even in our epoch, let alone in happier ages, when people read less and thought more. Few follow it unhesitatingly, without throwing at some time or other a sad glance towards the distant lost paradise towards into which they know, in their deeper consciousness, that they are never to peer; the paradise of perfection in time within so remote that the earliest people of which we know remember it as only a dream. Yet they follow their fate away; they obey their destiny. That resigned submission to the terrible law of decay; that acceptance of the bondage of time by creatures who dimly feel they could be free from it, but who find it too hard to try to free themselves, who know beforehand that they would never succeed, even if they did try, because at the bottom of that incurable unhappiness of man the deplored again and again the Greek tragedies, long before these were written. Man is unhappy because he knows, because he feels, in general, that the world in which he lives, of which he is a part, is not what it should be; not what is could be; not what, in fact, it was at the dawn of time, before decay set in. He cannot wholeheartedly accept the world as his, especially not accept the fact that it is going from bad to worse (and be glad). However much he may try to be a realist, and snatch from destiny whatever he can, when he can, still an invincible yearning for the better remains at the bottom of his heart; he cannot, in general stomach the world as it is In heralding the most widespread massacre, I believe that war is preparing mystical spheres for the apparition of great ideals. Where the charnel house dissolves, joy will be born in from it; where the weight of mortality sinks down, the soul's freedom will be uplifted. The greater the offering, the greater will be the wonder and the miracle” Boyd Rice and Douglas Pearce Scorpion Winds-Paradise of Perfection