I’ve been a devout Catholic that recently quit 21 years of weed last Sunday. That Monday I was angry at the universe and God, and a demon visited me in my dreams that evening. But I lunged after it as if to attack it with a rage overcoming my initial fear/shock, and woke up swinging lol Now I feel freed, but remain vigilant and devout to the Lord.
Bro, not only does God care, he has CHOSEN us. We are the very special few. Trust in the Lord, and BE TRUE TO YOURSELF. The pain goes away when you you stand up for what you believe in. It may mean finding some new friends or a new job (or like I did, start a business), but there is tremendous FREEDOM when you wake up and live life awaken. We are ants, things are always going to be out of our control regardless. Now I get to do this without coagulated blood.
Jesus Christ is the one true way.