Ever since I woke up, the system disinterests me. I haven’t worked in 3 years, (I want to!!! But I can’t find anything interesting enough to slave myself away for.) I’m barely interested in finishing my schooling or going to college. (I’m not a high schooler.) What are some ways I can get interested in life again? Because it is tearing me and my partner apart. He says I am too interested in fringe conspiracies and haven’t been focusing on helping them or myself. It is so hard to just go back to sleep and focus on life anymore. What I’ve found out during the pandemic has sickened me and honestly? It has ruined life in every single way. It is so hard to focus on what I need to do in this life when all we are in this life is slaves to the system. All I want in this life is be happy with my partner, go to work and just live my life.. but our way of life has changed forever. It is so hard to cope. It is so hard to get through this. I have anxiety, depression and BPD. The pandemic has made all of it worse. I can only hope we will come out victorious against our enemies. (Deep State/Illuminati/Luciferian Baby Blood Drinkers or whatever you want to call them.) This is literally BIBLICAL. I feel like I’ve had a spiritual awakening or that God is calling on me to be a warrior of Christ because I see the number 17 every day in everything I do. Anyone else? How do people cope with this madness? I feel like waking up has ruined my life. I can’t simply ignore the knowledge I’ve gained during the pandemic. I used to scoff at Hillary being a pedophile, Pizzagate and all of that. But now I can’t go back to sleep, I can’t just ignore all of the lies, deceit, how much they hate humanity, if the vaccine agenda will kill us all, my loved ones, my family. In another life, I’d want to take down the Illuminati. Or die trying. This world is sick. I want to know the truth and the full truth. Are there aliens? Are there demons? Are there angels? Is God real? Is he shining his light on all of us so we can use the light against the forces of darkness? Will Jesus ever come back? Are we Light Bringers? I have so many burning questions.
Comments (40)
sorted by:
Be in the world but not of it. That's the answer.
I see this world not as our home but as our school.
Yeah, you gotta do something. Can't live in your head forever. Recommend exercise as a first step: walks, bike rides, whatever. Find stuff you might like to do, and find a way to do it. Work but don't slave.
Darlin,' the ultimate red pill, the red pill of ALL red pills is Jesus. Yes, God IS real, yes, He does exist, Yes, He loves and cares about you. And yes, despite all the madness around me, I have peace. And the reason I have peace is because of my faith and my knowledge of God.
Here is a simple little prayer you can pray to start you on your journey. Something along these lines. Just be sure to humble yourself and be sincere when you pray it. "God, I don't even know if you exist. But I want to know the truth. If you are real, if you do exist, please reveal yourself to me."
Everyone is so nice here. Thank you all.
Volunteer. Do good and bring light to others.
Start with animals (Humane Society, ASPCA, etc.) Focus on the animals and tune out all the people nonsense that goes on in these organizations (trust me, there is A LOT of people nonsense like power struggles.) The beauty of being a volunteer is that you can tell them to piss off if they try to drag you into the people drama.
Once you are feeling more whole and balanced, volunteer with little humans. As long as you can pass a background and finger print check, schools will let you volunteer.
Read Your Bible! Play particular attention to Psalms: 23, 91,116,117,118 and 119
Nice. My favorite passage is Psalms 118: 5-8.
Nothing like Trusting in the LORD! I like Psalms 23 because HE restores our Souls and keeps us on the path to righteousness and you can't Praise HIM enough for HIS Mercy and Grace! I've had a least 5 occasions that I could have been killed or really hurt in car accidents if the LORD wouldn't of stopped them from happening! It's only because of the GRACE and MERCY of My LORD and SAVIOR that I can give my testimonies right here and now! PRAISE GOD!
I know exactly how you feel. I go to work and go through the motions and I just cant stop thinking "how do these people not see or understand what is really going on". I feel like a cog in a machine contributing to my own demise. The things I do as hobbies such as playing and making music I have completely lost a passion for. It is hard to be motivated when you are watching society collapse. I ordered a bible today as I have never been religious but something kept telling me over and over to do so. I am hoping in those pages I find something to make me feel like I have purpose. I am surprisingly optimistic that I will. Good luck to you and remember we are not alone in all this.
I’m phasing myself out of the system
KittyQ. become skilled with some of the instruments the enemy uses to control us. find one that you have a natural ability for and you can learn deeply.
look across the patriot spectrum - growers, distributors, suppliers, manufacturers, builders, creators, communicators, programmers, cyber sleuths, those entering local governance, school boards, home schoolers... who is near you? what work can you do for them/with them while you develop your own skills and talents?
anxiety, depression, and BPD cannot be overcome in personality isolation. service to others is therapeutic way to deal with stress and personal problems.
start small. try something simple. don't over extend. you will discover opportunities that make sense to you.
I have been going through what you describe for decades now. Trust in God and volunteer or run for office. If you are creative type then do creative stuff. Basically use your God given talents in any field to wake people up. Stay busy, stay focused, dont give up!! And pray for our misled brothers and sisters in Christ that they may find the light.
since you don’t want to slave away at a job, how about simply working a job where you enjoy the people or the atmosphere? perhaps some volunteer work?
I would actually love that. I’m about to get a car soon too.
Kitty, go out and live your best life. They hate that. Their entire campaign is to prevent us from doing so. Every day we live our best life is a defeat for evil. They want us despondent, depressed, sick, weak, feeling nothing but defeat. Dont give them that victory. You are a Patriot and there is pride and strength in that. Billions of us worldwide stand behind you.
Always remember that God wins.
2 Thessalonians 3:10
For even when we were with you, this we commanded you, that if any would not work, neither should he eat.
You should find something to support yourself at bare minimum.
God is absolutely real. He’s the only one thing that has provided me peace throughout this whole process. I feel His presence, I feel He’s in control and guiding those earthly souls who are doing the work. He’s real and He provides everything we need, I’m not a religious zealot, but I 100% believe God is intrinsically involved in this entire scenario.
It has ruined your life - your old life.
But knowing what you know now, would you really want to go back?
If not, it requires you to learn to find a new balance in this world.
Centre it on Christ, find the peace He has to offer. It's a lot to take in when you awaken. Maybe set up some logic containers in your mind, simple ones like true, false, TBD get a good process going to help you manage where things go so you aren't overwhelmed with everything. Hone your strengths, apply them where you can as you live and learn. Don't forget to be loving or quick to pick up the reception in others 'might they be awake too?'
Amen to that fren. I have been reading my Bible lately. I see a lot of truth in it.
Same. I'm stuck working at a pointless job that does nothing for humanity. We're in a war and I'm contributing nothing. I have to work at my dumb job to afford to survive and I don't have time for anything else. I have to pay off my fake debt (college is a scam) even though USD is becoming more and more worthless. I want to take part of this war, but I'm trapped because I need to keep working or I'll be homeless. I'm literally just waiting for the financial system to collapse and trying to stay alive until then.
I absolutely understand that. And sometimes? Yeah.. but I am trying to find my way again after being lost in the dark. No more making excuses not to. Before pandemic I lost my grandma and quit my hostess job, I became a shell of myself, my skin got bad, scarred and I gained weight. I thought of it as God trying to push me over to finally do something about my life but it only made me more upset with myself and made me feel insecure. Lately, I have been finding passion in selling stuff on eBay, flipping stuff is what my dad does on the side and I want to be like him. He has a lifetime of retirement stored in the garage, things of value. I want to be like that one day. Be able to retire on valuables alone. I love animals so I might take that advice to volunteer at animal shelters. Honestly ever since I’ve been so miserable with myself and life I have been very mean to ones I love and then end up regretting it. I have done massive amounts of hurt and damage especially to my loved ones and it still surprises me they still love me as is. Is it human nature to be toxic sometimes? Is it because I’m mentally ill? I love my loved ones with all my heart and I want to be as good as I can in this life but when I’m toxic I feel all of the negativity of the universe come and bite my ass. Also, I will try to reply to everyone who has commented, thank you guys so much.
Warrior for Christ and his Word IS the answer
Oh, great, it’s the return of the “all my friends and family shun me and my life is falling apart all because of the awakening and/or Q” shill narrative.
We’ve seen these before. We’ll see it again. If folks here are so soft as to get repeatedly rolled by concern trolls on this board, how the hell are you surprised that our society has gotten so miserably rolled by Social Marxism, which is essentially just one big, coordinated, civilizationally-destructive concern-troll effort?
Folks, use your time and compassion for your neighbors suffering in the real world; use your discernment for sad-sack tales of Woe of the Awakened on anonymous forums. This sht is straight out of the shill handbooks. Get a spine, frens.
I totally feel your feelings. Regardless of what you wind up doing day to day, keep in mind that when the world is unshackled, there'll be a huge demand for decent, hard-working and enthusiastic people. If you can maintain a reserve of hope, that might be all you need to reignite your passion(s) when the Good Life begins. Don't give up.
Lol I feel the exact same way.
Just by staying positive and upbeat you have beat the black hats. It’s about humanity becoming aware of what they have been doing to us. They keep us negative so we bicker and fight all the time and that way we can never find common ground to build our resistance from. The Military is really the only way to win against these demons and sons of demons. They are so deeply entrenched in every aspect of the world and our lives. Giving to others is the greatest thing you can do for now. Service to others as opposed to service to self is such a big part of us getting to our next destiny. I have to mention the psychics like Utsava and Janine the Tarot reader, Mark Taylor who speaks the words of God. All on YouTube or Bitchute etc. I don’t want to forget Saratoga Ocean. She has some really helpful things to share. Happy Ascension everyone!
All great advice, and I might add keep your physical wants and needs basic. With every effort try to stay out of debt. It will enslave you.
There's something about this post that seems fishy to me...
I know many of us here are skeptics. However, I’ve read previous u/KittyQ posts and she appears to me to be very young and somewhat naive, who obviously is questioning much about life. She feels welcomed here, as do I, and feels comfortable sharing her frustrations. Nothing wrong with that, fren.
I am 22, my birthday was August so yes, pretty young. I have been having trouble waking my loved ones up because they still think it is just a conspiracy and they keep saying they rather focus on working, getting their life together and other things. Totally understandable, but any time I try to speak truth they write it off as conspiracy. But I keep trying. Ugh God I hope I have not embarrassed myself here with my posts. I feel like my latest was just pure fear because of what I’ve heard doctors say about the vaccinated. I freaked out and overreacted, I got really embarrassed and thought I was being dumb so I ended up deleting it. I appreciate the mod asking me if I got what I needed and if I was okay. I got a lot of different answers and I appreciate everyone’s feedback.
I can tell you, in my experience with family and friends alike, you are wasting your precious energy and time. Focus on figuring out what you’d like to do to make yourself happy right now, and the other things in your life will fall into place once you’re happy with YOU.
There’s a saying that words don’t teach, only life experience does. And those you care about will eventually figure it out for themselves as well, or maybe they won’t; but that’s not your business or your responsibility, fren.
I try my hardest though because I don’t want any more of my loved ones to get the death jab. My boyfriend stresses it’s his decision which it is but I’m trying to make him understand even after FDA approval, this vaccine was made by criminals and it is still not safe in my eyes. I pray, so hard, that he does not get the jab at any costs. I worry about my mom. She has been jabbed twice because she’s a CNA. My friends have been jabbed. I will never get it in a thousand life times. I heard a conspiracy that AstraZeneca also patents Adrenochrome. Who the fuck wants a vaccine by a company who patents child’s blood?
Like I said, it’s not your responsibility for someone else’s choices. That’s on him/her; though your heart is in the right place, i.e., concerned for others’ well-being.
You are not wrong,
This post, and this account, are beyond fishy. They stink.
I assure you I am not a shill or a leftist infiltrator. Lol, I know that’s what most of them would say but I am legit just asking the truth and nothing but the truth. I feel like I have lost my way for a while. That’s why I made this post to see if anyone feels the way I do. I am not a doomer, or a shill, I was just simply asking if knowing what we know now has ruined anyone else’ life to where they don’t know what to do anymore after being exposed to the system.
That's called "concern trolling."
And it's ridiculously obvious.
Stop it.