From the earliest moments I was aggressively socialized to accommodate others and never take my own side. Now as a man I'm supposed to go out there and succeed in this highly competitive world? It's a cruel joke.
I developed earlier than most kids. By the time I was 2 years old I was already talking more like an adult and learning to read my first words. The teachers didn't understand this and resented me for not acting my age. I was always bored in school and hated the way I was treated for doing anything that felt remotely natural. No stretching, no talking, no exercising my own discretion or being creative. I thought it was ridiculous that I had to ask to use the restroom or drink water. I was always getting in trouble for things that no adult would ever think twice about criticizing another adult for.
Going to public school is like being raised in a communist country. Teachers use their age difference and institutional backing to bully kids into non-existence. They obviously resented us. They didn't want to be there. We were always the problem for them just by existing and they wanted to mold us to be as small as possible so they didn't have to "deal" with us as human beings.
What does that do to a person's mind?
Virtually all of the traits I hate about myself can be traced back to school. The people-pleasing, the passivity, the fear of not being in control of my environment. I often hesitate to take initiative or advocate for myself because every time I did that as a child I was squashed by people bigger and more respected than me. Eventually I learned not to trust myself. I learned that the only way to survive is to mindlessly fall in line and follow directions. It's been a very hard thing to unlearn.
I think a lot of the woke stuff we see is actually a backlash to this. Schools were so overbearing in the 2010s, the people coming out of that environment just want to assert some form of identity for themselves. Sometimes that shows up in the form identifying as a cat or having crazy colored hair. It's sad that so many young minds have been ruined by modern schools.
As an elementary school teacher myself, I'd like to express my sympathy that that happened to you. I know it would have happened a lot, but it didn't happen everywhere. Unfortunately, the public systems are generally not equipped to deal with students who are exceptional, whether on the high end or the low end. I teach my students quite differently from what you described, yet I can't say I am completely satisfied with my own ability to meet everyone's needs. The fact is, young humans are incredibly complex entities, and even if a teacher only had 1 student to teach and it was their own flesh and blood, they still couldn't do a perfect job of it. (I'm a father, too, so I know.) I hope as you journey on in your life, you will find increasing contentment and blessing.
If you look into the original design by Mann and Greeley, Humanists with published manifestos, you'll find that the government indoctrination daycare centers purposely kill initiative, creativity, critical thought, logic, faith... They declared they would replace family and church with government and state, prepare compliant, obedient workers for the factories, that would be ready for the "inevitable" consolidation with communism.
Bullies, peer pressure, emphasis on attendance over understanding, on mindless repetition of meaningless tasks, on conformity, on feelings and relativism, on excess drudge work that invades all private time (drilling in that our time is not our own), all of this has been by design. Making the teaching profession so unpleasant that the good teachers are unhappy to the point of ruin, and that bad, incompetent teachers are attracted to the classrooms. Because they're not there to TEACH, but to administer, to manage, to supervise.
I'm hopeful you can turn your energy into reviving the one room schoolhouse model, transparent, owned and managed by the parents of attendees, mixed ages and everyone allowed to learn at their own levels in each subject regardless of age... and to stop at the best point for each, unforced into collegiate debt. Older pupils mentor younger, reinforcing their own learning and proudly providing successful examples, younger pupils emulate the older, reaching above themselves daily. Scientifically proven to be the most effective model for engaged individuals that are equipped with reason and creative and critical thought, productive inventors, entrepreneurs, craftsmen, businessmen etc of worth, it cannot be reproduced fully at home, which is the current best thing, but by cooperatives of interested families.
What do you think of the idea of school in general? I've kind of grown skeptical of the entire concept honestly. I don't think industrial education could ever do a child justice based on my experience and what I've heard from others. I don't think it's the teacher's fault most of the time. It's just an impossible task.
School has, like many things, suffered from the lack of social, moral, and spiritual cohesion that once made Western societies great. If schools and most the families that used them were based on a solid foundation of Christian values, they would be a massive benefit to society. This goes for everything: entertainment, government, commerce... Make Christian values central and you would have as close to Utopia as is possible this side of eternity. A socialist nation run by Christians would be better than a pure capitalist society devoid of Christ.
Fidel Castro's ears perked when he heard this
"go out there and succeed in this highly competitive world"
Of course, they did not educate you for this, they don't want this for you, they would rather you fail and become a government dependent and pawn; but it you know you want and need it anyway, despite their propaganda. It is inherent in the human soul for freedom! and independence! and meaning!
You are more than half way there. GO Pede! Read, study, get skills, get self sufficient, and thumb your nose at them!
Blessings pede! You know what is wrong in the system, hence you already know on some level what is right ~ by negation of what is wrong.
“You have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else.” ― Albert Einstein
LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
LLEEEETT’SS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
GO GO GO!
We are ALL going as One!
I'm working on it rn! Funny enough I find myself far more drawn to growth and knowledge since leaving that environment.
You have a logical mind and a human soul, drawn to Truth, which is the normal human condition!
Sadly, so many cannot break away from the programming aka brainwashing.
They find their self-esteem in validation by others in the close social network in which they immediately find themselves, hence they cannot break away, from propaganda / brainwashing because of their emotional needs for validation and acceptance.
WE find our self-esteem in search of Truth! We have thousands of years of Search for Truth in our pocket! or at least on our bookshelves or on-line classics.
They cannot break you! You got out of there with your mind still alive!
GO GO GO! They cannot stop you!
ArmyLady is absolutely correct. You need to learn on your own. How many have been educated by public school to know how to go out there and work or solve problems or live well?
Did they teach you how to cook or eat well? They did not Did they teach you how to have a good relationship with your spouse or children? Of course not. Did they teach you how to help your body or treat yourself? Of course not.
They won't even teach you logic, which is absolutely the most basic of understanding in this world.
All they teach in school is obedient. No wonder they all mask up and took the vaccines.
I can sort of relate in my own way.
My immediate family in hindsight was not "ideal"; and so I grew up the opposite of what I should be.
But now I am working on myself everyday.
This is the best time of my life and I'm just getting started.
Don't waste time looking back, what's done is done.
The 4 Stages of Learning:
1- Unconscious Incompetence
2- Conscious Incompetence
3- Conscious Competence
4- Unconscious Competence
We survived Stage 1 and are at Stages 2-3, that's what matters.
Don't waste time looking back on what could have been or should have been.
There are many others/older people who are still stuck on Stage 1; and that is a worse situation to be in.
We still have the opportunity to prepare for opportunities in our own futures and then seize those opportunities when they come. We know what weakness we need to work on, we have the power to become the best version of ourselves.
If you find the worst of the worst "troublemakers" you went to school with, most are very successful and most self employed in the trades. Those are the ones that never listened and did not allow the indoctrination. No college, no college debt. They just did their thing.
End Public Schools
Sorry you went through that. Elementary school nurse here. Got to see many teachers in action. Most were as you described, but a few really tried. I agree with what Lawjic said, public schools generally aren't equipped. I got to help one truly gifted child.
They labeled him autistic with oppositional defiance tendencies because he wouldn't/ couldn't sit still, focus, or complete his work. They placed him in a special needs class with others who truly could not learn. He came to my clinic a lot. Several times a day, every day. The teacher realized very quickly that I could get him to do anything, she could get him to do almost nothing.
So for almost the entire school year, his desk was in my clinic and I was his teacher. He was in 3rd grade and bored stiff. I made him a deal, we zipped through his assignments and I taught him how to run the clinic, notes, supplies, and the computer. We talked about just about everything. We researched and spoke about as much as possible on many different subjects and he loved it and truly thrived. I tried convincing his parents to get him tutors or home schooling him to no avail.
He moved the next year, I asked the nurse at his new school how he was doing. He was back in a special needs class. It nearly broke my heart. I still think about how much smarter he was than most of the teachers and probably even me truth be told. He genius was being stiffled and there was nothing I could do about it.
You and I are definitely playing on the same team but in two different fields.
I hate that you had to go through that, but I love your story, and that you recognized the cause. It wasn't near as bad in public school in my day than when you attended, but it was bad enough then. I was a quiet girl, but I'm also a Leo...I'd put up with only so much before I asserted myself. In 10th grade, they put TVs in all the classrooms, shortened each class time, and forced us to watch the news every morning. Every day, a Skittles commercial played 3 times! (To this day, I can't look at Skittles in the checkout because I get nauseous.) Anyhow, I put my head on the desk, and plugged my ears, and refused to watch. The homeroom teacher yelled at me for being disrespectful, and I told him I wasn't hurting anyone, and he couldn't make me watch that. Things like this helped make up my mind that when I had kids one day, I would homeschool. (I did homeschool my 6 kids.)
I remember they taught me McCarthyism was paranoia; now we know he was not paranoid and he was trying to save this country.
When I graduated the 8th grade going onto high school; they made us all watch Roots the tv show to incept us with race-baiting.
In the 70s teachers were encouraged to hit you with boards (paddles)...try learning under that..this was for the boys only
You can always reverse things, at any age, that is the first principle. And you can always reeducate yourself, as long as you can read and think. I am 63, and used to work as a lawyer. By now I grow olives and lemons, distill alcohol, ferment etc. And I care about the afterlife. Born and raised as a Catholic, I left the church and now even the Bible as a guideline. First time in my life I have read the original teachings of Buddha, and these teachings apply to me like a perfect key to the lock. As they are not a religion, but a logical approach to life. The book I am referring to is: The Doctrine of the Buddha: The Religion of Reason, by Georg Grimm. You can get it at amazon and else.
I was lucky that I went to one of the best small schools in the US. I was able to validate so many classes that I was taking sophomore classes in my first semester. The bonus was that there were 4 girls for every guy in high school. I am so glad I didn’t grow up in a time of woke.
When I was in first grade, I went to the teachers desk and asked to go to the restroom. She said no so I peed standing there at her desk. My mother was so outraged she went to the school. My mother was very mild tempered but don't mess with her kids. Freaking 6 and they thought I was just goofing around. Wtf? This was in the 70s too. Public school is awful these days but everything wasn't so great when I was there, during that time, either.
When I was in 6th grade, I was in study hall and asked to use the restroom. The teacher told me no. So, I walked up to his desk and told him that I really had to go. He again said no, because he had my sister for math class the previous year, and she used to roam the halls. I responded, "I'm not my sister," and walked out. When I came out of the restroom, I saw him down the hall standing outside the classroom with his arms crossed glaring at me. But, he never bothered with me again, and thankfully I didn't get him for any math classes.
And don't forget everyone wins a prize, everyone is a winner. Race to the bottom.
This is a great post. Thank you fren
I was a shitty student. Actually thought I was dumb because i was so bored. School was nothing but a big interruption in my play time. Hated every minute. Probably the reason I'm not in the matrix.
Jesus doesn't want is to fit into 'this world' that would be the disfunction...so be glad you had the experience, it made you strong enough for Q🐸
While I also was cowed for awhile in that environment, I found covert ways to act out against the teachers, most hated me. I read insatiably though, and often knew more than they did; learned quickly to always have receipts when debunking their myths. Didn't have cell phones yet, else there'd probably be a bunch of leaked vids lol. I broke into their offices and got test answers, not because I needed them but because they were dumb tests that were full of "gotcha" nonsense instead of real concepts. When some other students thought that it was cool to prove a teacher wrong, they'd get together with me and talk about the subjects they were interested in, read and share some of the same library books, practice vocabulary words in real conversations, etc... we all became smarter and liked it. For me, though, most enjoyable was the thought processes, okay and the plotting lol. If not for my sainted grandmother I probably had a good chance of becoming a serious crook. As it was, I did get into a "gifted" program in middle school, and there leaned to drink, play poker, get sexually assaulted by a college student... so if anyone thinks you missed out on it, don't.
I agree with most of what you said except the acting out with colored hair. I dont think that is a sign of non-conformity...just the opposite. They, the left all have tats and peircings and colored hair. It is a sign of the group and conformist in nature. It is against the natural. They do not like or accept their bodies as god given so it "right" to mar it. Trans seems to be a natural extension of that attitude. All of tbose things are the in - cool thing to do.
My school's were very good. My preparation for college was excellent even though I messed around in school. Illiterate people were not graduated in my county.