I dont even know what to say but... I need them prayers. I need strength I need endurance i need remembering what happy actually is
im in a dead end job and my phone fell in water tonight at that bs job - i cant even afford to replace it with a weeks paycheck thats how shitty this job is. So...
im really kinda at wits end
and thats without ... all of this
all the thinking of how close to the edge of the cliff we are with all the trump/q stuff. Im just at wits end and trying to keep myself a good hamster on the wheel for my own survival but ugh im so close to just saying screw it n giving up. Im tired to watching this movie, im tired of the shit life always throws at me, im just tired. i dont care anymore right now call it a blackpill but i really wiish i could doze off tonight and thats a wrap for my story because..... i dont have it left in me to wait for whatever fireworks we've been promised at the end. i just dont care. pedos are still out there ruining countless kids lives, politics is still corrupt as can be, good people still rot in jail while evil people dont. im just fucking done so i really need a prayer cause I aint tryna leave yet but its tempting
Jamezelo - I am going to send a healing circle of white light to surround you. You are loved and needed. Hold on. Do nothing to harm yourself. Things are going to get better. Please be strong. We are here for you.
<3 thank you. as someone who feels writing my lyrics is the realest i'll ever be in this pound of ground beef piloting a body called a brain LOL =
sometimes when it counts its what you say that counts... and you definitely said the right thing.
And trust me the chance of me doing anything to harm myself is likely as Hillary being arrested on film tomorrow morning (but wouldnt that be sweet to see)
when i say im done i dont mean a split decision suicide because i know people who have done that and, for reference - "uncle" Bill killed himself when i was 3 and it still left a huge impact on my life (and my music, infact) RIP WILLIAM MOORE.
but nah when i say im done i more mean im done pretending life is going to get any better - but after that thought seeps into your brain it becomes dangerousso ty for your ....do i call it concern? lol
You are welcome my friend.
I am praying for you. Try to get some rest. And remember that the enemy loves to kick us when we are down. But Father God is holding you tight right now, even tho it feels like He is a million miles away. He has you. Go to Him in your weakness, and He will carry you and strengthen you. Been there so many times, always good to ask for prayers when we are struggling, it's amazing how powerful the prayers are from our friends and family.
Im actually gonna counter that first part you said because as frustrated as I was when I wrote this - others before you have came to this post and calmed me down. right now.... my counter is
No, this isnt the enemy kicking me when im down,. its my team-mate knowing there is something better out there for me just begging for me to say ITS TIME TO FIND SOMETHING BETTER
life will teach you lessons in mysterious ways. God is a comedian and he's his only audience. sometimes we dont get the joke we just gotta have faith in the punchline
Gotcha! Thanks for explaining, I misread your request.
I hear you about your last line! Well said.
As for finding a new job, depends on the area of course, but it's often easier to get a new job while you still have a job. And so you don't get discouraged when you don't hear back, some companies post jobs that they have no intention of filling. So hang in there.
And still praying for you!
Heavenly Father, We pray for the strength of our friend Jamezelo and the needs he has. We pray Father to ease his mind and put him at peace with what is going on in this world of ours. We pray for help in his job and help with his finances. We pray for your help in meeting his needs of every kind. Lift his spirits up and show him that 'this too will pass' as we travel together near the precipice. Let him know that you are in control and that all will be well as long as he trusts in you. We thank you Father for your loving mercy and all things you have given us. In Jesus name we pray. Amen.
thank you AMEN
God is in control and he loves you just like he loves all his children. Remember that.
Amen.
I understand exactly how you feel. It feels hopeless and scary and like you were defeated before you even started.
For now, I’ll of course pray for you but here’s a shot at fixing your phone.
First, shake the hell out of it until no more water comes out. Then put it in a baggie of rice ideally overnight but it can sometimes take longer. When you take it out of the rice, shake it again and make sure no water comes out. Then try to turn it on.
If it still won’t turn on, look up how to repair your phone. Parts are cheap and if you’re lucky it was an especially cheap part. I know a little about phone repair including water damage so let me know your model and I’ll do some research if you need to repair it.
honestly the phone was just the final straw but in my struggle to survive (and want to) i have turned back to drinking and that will absolutely kill me if i continue so...
right now i feel like i been considering rehab (i did AA + started going to church when i was in legal trouble and i shined. a year sober, got baptized, everything. but once the legal crap went away i relapsed fast)
like i almost took the leap a few weeks ago and said fuck this job i need rehab and to detox and to start over - but, then i swallowed that and went back to work the next day. im worse off today - so, whats stopping me?
sometimes you need need a breaking point
and ironically not having a phone in there is probably the best thing for me
I have read that drugs and alcohol are not social problems, but spiritual problems. Perhaps spending more time with your Lord & Savior would help put things into perspective. I understand the frustrations of waiting for things to get better in our world. But God's time is not our time. Our time spent praying for those who are suffering (ie. the children) and praying for conversion of sinners is not wasted. I pray that you know God's love and closeness to you in your suffering.
We're not here to be happy. That's for later.
"He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal."
Endure.
"But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.”
excuse the fuck out of you? after reading what I said, hiow im suffering and want to kinda leave this all right now, your counsel is to say WERE NOT HERE TO BE HAPPY
youre lucky i was just venting and had no intention of going anywhere tonight but jeez dude that comment coulda sent the wrong person into a stupid mistake. whats wrong with you?
/u/CasuallyObservant THANK YOU for bringing God into this in the right way because im sure truthy had good intentions but wow he did NOT read the room. you uinderstood what i was trying to say.
Just quoting Jesus my dude
I'm gonna edit this comment because I was overly hostile and just repeat what I said in the other comment to you: time and place man. Your comment could have made someone do something very stupid.... Thank God All Mighty for not letting me be that person. But, I needed to know its gonna be alright in that moment not to hear "youre supposed to suffer"
Praying for you brother. You aren't alone in those feelings. Realize you feel this way bc that's what the cabal wants. Do not let them win. We are all so much stronger than the bullshit they feed us.
https://youtu.be/R84PqRdZ7_Y?si=oUuAtjQFZUmrVQoh
praying blessings...
thank you and God bless <3
https://youtu.be/r49V9QcYheQ?si=iQronhYvM5NF6lf2
lyrics.... sing along....
thanks but hey check your messages lol
I am very sorry to read this, Fren. Be sure your serenity shall be in my prayers.🙏🏻
I just had to scream it out to an audience that would listen. im already feeling slightly better.
Hey, Job went through worse lol
Don't give up before the miracle happens. I know it's hard to stay true, but that is what we are all called on to do right now. DJT says "the best is yet to come" and I hang on to that. Prayers for you, to simply hold on and accept what is going on in your life.
Giving up is EXACTLY what [they] want you to do.
It's always darkest before the Don. So hang on, fren. He's coming.
https://www.bitchute.com/video/5Q6gZO2HP3Y9/
Prayers on the way fren.
I never buy the newest latest phone, I just buy a new one online that's an out of date model. Possibly a friend or relative has one like this for free.
my friend as shitty as things seem you are an important part of this world. Things often times seem hopeless and just like a dog chasing its tail. Many of us here are much older ( you seem young) and have all been through a lot. It sucks. but you in yourself have much you can accomplish no matter how hard it seems. We are all here for you and know you will not only survive but do well. one step at a time. you will find a better job and in time will look back on everything today as a learning experience.With all that is happening in the world you can make a difference.Even if it is small it is a difference. It is the young guys like you that strive to do better even when you get knocked on your ass sometimes. You will get up and keep pushing on..there is a song to that by REO speedwagon look it up lol probably older than you. keep your eyes forward tomorrow you can change yesterday is just another bump in the road...keep your head up and know we are all here for you....WWG1WGA
Dear Lord, please help Jamezelo and all who are struggling. We are standing at the edge of the Red Sea & feel the hot breath of Pharoah's horses bearing down on the back of our necks. Give us strength to wait for your command to part the sea, and make a way. Thank you Father that we do not stand alone. Thank you for this community. Thank for all the ways that you provide for us. Thank you Jesus for telling us that in this world we would have troubles, but to take heart for you have overcome the world. Keep us strong & carry us through to the Glory of your Holy name! I ask this in Jesus' Mighty name, Amen.
Homie I'll say it straight. You're supposed to feel like this. We're at the tail end of fighting a pervasive evil empire. You're exhausted and run down. We all are. But we rely on each other to keep us running. There's not enough of us fully engaged to be able to afford losses.
As a person I want you to survive, to thrive, and to have the life you dream of. But as a willing participant in this war we're currently involved in, I NEED you to survive. Don't give them another win.
They create these conditions to convince you to make that choice. Thats the goal for them. That's another angle of their population control agenda. Fuck em. Live till you're a hundred and fight for every breath.
I spend my whole life broke skating by with 3 kids and a wife watching all the things I can't pay for pass by. And that's OK.
xDBecause WHEN we win, I can show them the exact events and explain my sm all but critical part in it. And I can forever have the luxury of knowing that when faced with the opportunity to engage a foe who has superior firepower, way more numbers, and with little chance of success I made the choice to fight. Even if it doomed my life to being less glamorous, less successful, less outwardly easy, it made it full of meaning.
With every breath that I didn't surrender, I was giving a giant middle finger to the most powerful entity the world has ever seen. Don't surrender. Find happiness in nature. Find happiness in what's real. Stop looking for happiness in their constructed environments. It's not meant for you and it'll cost you your soul.
Become that giant walking talking middle finger because a future free of them is worth the price of admission. I promise you that.
It looks to me like you know the solution. I am a recovered AA alcoholic and reborn Christian. You know it works, you even said so, there is your solution. Find your local AA chapter and shut up and follow some suggestions. Or you can stay broke, unemployable and down cast till the end, which will surely come sooner. Dear God, I lift up this suffering soul to you, that you may provide guidance to seek your grace and forgiving love to regain control over his life, so that he may in turn, one day guide others to recovery and live in joy and in service to you.
it was time to quit yesterday
the issue is when i try to shoot for anything better.... the shot misses. ive sent in online applications, written ones in the location, called back, etc and i still ended up at 12.50 cause thats better than 0
that said, before i even read your comment i just applied to about 5 jobs all better than my current one on Indeed so wish me luck lol that said tho...
im not in the mood for speculation fanfics.Trials in Antarctica? dude.
mass arrests across the globe kinda dont matter if i dont check the daily news cause out here its still same shit different day