I'm so sorry you are going through this. I will pray for strength and clearness of mind in your difficult decisions. I pray for peace for you. I know this is hard, having had to make a decision like this not too long ago. God bless fren.
I'm really getting into making more things from scratch - like home made. I have already made sausage- I make ice cream, am learning to make pasta, I want to get into making bread too. I make waffles - to take the place of Eggos. I am now researching how to make homemade dog food. I am going to make my own vanilla extract (Vanilla beans and alcohol) I always thought things were more complicated to make etc. but it's really not. It is also much better for you when you don't have all the preservatives etc. added. I am ready to try to make my own butter too. We shall see.
I also have a small raised garden going. I have tomatoes, peppers, cukes, green beans and this year I am trying something new. I got growing bags online. I am trying to grow potatoes and also on onions. I'm excited to see how that will turn out.
In my small circle of the world, I have seen 2 people go out completely - separate occasions - in stores, in the last little while. Were fine one minute and bam out like a light. The first guy was young,early 20's not obese, and no reason for him to just fall out He took a while to come to. The 2nd guy was mid 50's - fell like a log and hit his head pretty hard. I was close by and helped get him up, asked him some health questions (Blood sugar, vision not double etc) He had no previous health condition that would contribute to him passing out. (I didn't ask about the jab)
I know it may just be coincidental but it may not. What are the odds???
Praying!