It sounds like if it wasn't this scar that you hyper focused on, it'd be something else.
I'm gonna let you know a secret about men - we love the imperfections. We love tooth gaps and snaggleteeth and weird moles and shit like that. A little imperfect mark makes women more beautiful to us. Just work on yourself, find a good man, and try not to focus on conditional things like "life would be so perfect, if only..."
If you're somebody who's capable of using abstract thought, or self aware enough to see you've been unreasonable, you're no longer "on the left."
You can't reason somebody out of something they were never reasoned in to. Communism requires unthinking, low-vibrational, terrified drones.
Don't let these fools scare you. How easy is it to tell someone online whose situation you know nothing about to upend their whole life?
Your mind is very powerful. Placebo and nocebo is very real. Try to find peace. Whatever negative side effects there may be, you can work it out with diet.
Who researches this shit and wants things sugar coated? This isn't for children.