I can sometimes turn faulty street lights on and off through intent focus. Often regular lights and computers act funny by my presence. Try as I may, I just can't get those bastards to fall from the sky. Oh, how I wish I could. They are stealing our beautiful, precious skies from us.
That wouldn't really explain why Texas has a weather modification board.
https://www.belolaw.com/blog/licenses-permits-for-weather-modification/
I don't know, their current efforts to magnify the sun are going swimmingly. For the first time in 25 years, I needed gloves just to touch my tools and materials, and the paint on my beams melted them together beyond repair.
The fact that you are here tells me that you are not failing. The purpose of school is (should be) to teach a child how to think. Not what to know nor what to think. The academia is useless, unless you have a direct purpose for what you are learning.
I dropped out of high school because it just wasn't right for me at the time. I think that I was in early algebra when I left (it takes a series of failings to drop out). My line of (self-employed 25 years) work requires moderately complex math to accomplish the tasks. I learned what I needed to learn when it became applicable. I was taught how to think at an early age. That is all I needed. That and a considerable amount of drive. You are doing fine. Good on you for taking it upon yourself. Relish the moments and do your best.
Look into holistic ways to control your asthma. I honestly know nothing about it, but I am convinced that there are natural cures, or at least proper maintenance, for everything that ails us. Use this as an opportunity to remove yourself from the clearly broken medical system. It's hard, but you can do it.
I know very little about things like give send go, nor if you are allowed to plug one here, but it would seem, unsurprisingly, that there are a whole lot of caring people here. I damn sure ain't loaded, but I would contribute for sure.
When you see the first chemtrail, begin taking pictures. Take them throughout the day. When the abrupt weather change happens, show the pictures in chronological order, and explain how you knew the weather change was coming before the weatherman.
Lol "what if". No shit. Get your cholesterol folks. You need it.