I am just feeling it on this Easter between the baby coming, starting a new career, coming back to Christ etc. this place helping me SO MUCH with my life.
It just sucks knowing I won’t have the time to contribute to this place anymore with the baby and going back to school.
Despite my last post I can’t leave here without confessing a major sin of mine. I have shit talked some of you beyond appropriate context. I have been hot headed and I am not proud of it. One of the things I am heavily working on fixing because I don’t want my daughter to see me like that.
So again I know things get passionate on here and heated so if you had an interaction like that with me I wanted to issue an apology if I went overboard. As I am becoming closer to becoming a father I have understood that I should speak to people how I would want them to speak to my daughter.
I am 32 years old and still learning about life. And I can’t leave here or come back to this place without addressing it.
Happy Easter and we will win because THE GATES OF HELL WILL NOT WIN.
I have sinned against some of you and I apologize. God bless you.
We’re human. Things happen for reasons that are beyond us. You found yourself and want to make your life better. That’s the important thing.
Congrats on the new baby and going back to school!!! You’ve got a bright future ahead!
Some may accept your words, others may not. That is their choice. What’s important is you recognized your self and made an effort to “right a wrong”. For that, I and many others here commend you! Well done! God speed to you, your family and your future!
Thank you brother
as you engage your faith and see overlooked miracles, this video will benefit you greatly- especially if you re-watch it 2 or 3 times. its long but worth every second. it will open up the bible for you.
https://youtu.be/GQsTEacMJQU?si=UTyeVc1JMrsxprog
You can make a check out to UNESCO to absolve your sins. Make the about $0.00 and in the memo put GTFO of America.
AND WHEN one "ADMITS" their mistakes they see what they really are and change for the better and it is an OUTSTANDING ATTRIBUTE to have and pass onto that darling baby when the time comes...
YOU are ONE OUTSTANDING WOMEN to realize and say something!!!!!!
God Speed!!!!!
Hey man! I can’t speak for those you feel you’ve wronged, but it sounds like you’re too hard on yourself.
It’s great that you’re thinking about these things, and I can tell with the attitude you had towards being a father, it’ll all fall into place.
I’m your age, have a 2 year old daughter, and it changed me, dude lol. I saw your post about taking a step back the other day and couldn’t help but identify with you. I moved away from a west coast liberal shit hole to find somewhere that felt like America, and I found it. I’m happy I’m raising my daughter here.
Not sure what exactly I need to say to you, everything and not much at the same time lol, but just don’t judge yourself too harshly (your girl will pick up on that too!). Just be strong, even if you’re not the ideal man, stay acting like one. Make sure from day 1, she has an example of what a good man should be, because so many have no idea these days.
You sound like you’ve got a good head on your shoulders. I’ve always been hot blooded and have had a wildddd life, but having a little girl will temper that. You’re already well on your way, but the moment you see her, you will become a better man in ways you can’t comprehend until then.
I, and many others, wish you the best! And we’re all here for you.
Happy Easter, and God bless you and your family. May you all have the love, peace, and security you deserve.
Brother I am so blessed. I did all the crazy west coast shit as a younger person (shrooms, LSD, DMT) and I was a college wrestler and high school linebacker so I have always been a shit talker and hell raiser.
With a daughter coming though, finally feeling like I am calming down.
You sure are, and so is that little girl. You’re going to be a good dad, and a better man.
Heh, right there with you… definitely did all that and then some. Violent life, done time, sold drugs for a living. Not proud, but not ashamed. I am what I am, I like to think God knows what he’s doing lol.
When I started living right, and living HONESTLY (which was new for me), everything just fell into place. It was very obvious to me that God was just waiting for me to catch up the whole time, I’m not even kidding. I had met a lovely woman out here in TN that had lived a similar life but had changed, and we decided we wanted a family. But she told me she was incapable of having children. God had been so good to me since I started trying to love myself and others, so I just asked Jesus to hold my beer because I was doing the damn thing lol.
Here we are, with the most perfect, healthy little girl.
All those things about yourself that worry you, and you’re telling yourself I need to change this, I need to change that, it IS good that you are conscious of it and thinking about it, but once you have her, it’s like, not even a question or decision anymore, if you know what I mean. Like, instead of “I need to do this differently,” you’re just going to do it. Because it’s the right way to be a man and a proper father, and the innocent, beautiful soul you’ve created deserve NOTHING less than EVERY opportunity in the world.
I used to not even have feelings, dude. I was dead inside. Now… you know those people that always want to talk about their kid, and show you pictures, and you’re like, I don’t give a fuck, people are really annoying about their kids?
I…. I think I might have become one of those people.
kek...it wasn't just the west coast man...
Lmfao brother. But yeah unironically those made me realize god was real.
I concur on your initial thought that he may be too hard on himself… it’s that thing we call life and it doesn’t always pan out like the movies tell us. It’s called growing up and meeting ones responsibilities and obligations. We can still be crazy and have fun, but that has to be in moderation now. PNWhomebrewer is going to be fine. In the end, we all are!
I only stop in here occasionally. I want to wish you luck on all the new things in your life. It takes a big person to be introspective and own short comings. Many blessings to your family and your journey to fatherhood!
Terrific post, pnwhomebrewer.
It reminds me of how happy I am to have discovered this place, and not only for the sane politics and worldview . . . it's because the PEOPLE here are, in the main, decent human beings with their heads on straight. No malice, no BS (again, for the most part).
You're human and so is everyone else. We all have feelings, and sometimes our old feelings get in the way of things in the present. That's certainly true for me.
Every single response to your post (that I've seen) is warm and insightful.
So is yours.
Congratulations (pre-congrats?) on your daughter, who I'm sure will be truly blessed to have you as her Dad.
Have a great life. You know you'll be welcomed back here should you ever decide to return.
Gods bless you brother
Welcome to the human race,all of us have failed in one way or another. The thing is to grow, do better, be the person God wants us to be, and don't repeat the errors of the past.
Life is full of ups and downs. Don't beat yourself up for speaking your mind on GAW. When the kiddo comes of age you will be tongue lashing him/her for no reason. When you realize what you did to your own flesh and blood the feelings of being a mean daddy will far exceed what you've bestowed to pedes on here.
Off topic, look down the road thirty years and ask yourself what you want to be and have at that time. Do you want to be financially secure so you can retire comfortably? If yes then start planning for that eventuality right now. Instead of working like a dog into your seventies, put a plan together right now so you won't have to work when you are old.
Think to yourself "how will can I put a million bucks into the bank". If that means working two jobs for 25 years, then contemplate that scenario. If you want to play scratch off lottery tickets, try that. But it sucks to be an old person working to put food on the table. Go into Walmart and ask anybody person why they are working there. It ain't for kicks and grins. It's because they didn't plan for retirement when they were young.
I can't say if we've ever had words, but I can say I've never been offended by anyone here that passionately expressed an honest opinion. I can tell you have your head on straight because of the choices you have made and even though you won't be here with us (at least for a while) I'm happy to know you will still be you, somewhere out there. Peace, brother. And raise that baby right.
Thank you brother
Noted and respected.
I've seen you do what you're talking about and thought poorly of it. But your positive contributions have always outweighed the negative.
I pray with certainty that you continue to grow in Christ, as a man, husband and father. The path will grow narrower and the change will come.
As an illustration, I am a father of a young boy, who was born right as I discovered Christ. God is good, Amen. I was, and still can be, prone to a harshly judgemental attitude, and rash verbal outbursts on occasion. Like you, I realized my flaws and prayed and acted on changing them through the Spirit. I saw how I effected my son through my behavior, and knew, from my own upbringing, how it would proceed if uncorrected. God filled me with the word, and I've come closer to generalized peace, and deal with any frustrations more positively and productively now.
I remember specifically the following verses speaking to me on this:
Matthew 12:34
" O generation of vipers, how can ye, being evil, speak good things? for out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaketh."
Matthew 12:36-37
"But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment.
37 For by thy words thou shalt be justified, and by thy words thou shalt be condemned."
I cited KJV just for you. 😉
Take care of yourself, and realize you've already won.
Thank you for giving me grace brother. Something about my wife going into the 3rd trimester has started to change me a lot.
God bless you.
Blessings to you and your family, brother.
The one big problem with online debate is we can’t look across the table and see another human being. Actually being able to connect makes a huge difference in our responses to one another.
If I was ever granted a wish I think it would be that this online community would become a physical one. If we were, we could have our debates in your family run brew pub. I would be the pain who would want to barter meat, vegetables, and eggs from my homestead. 😂
I sincerely hope you can leave your account here so we benefit from your past contributions. I’m guessing your fear is if it remains you will be tempted to spend time here you can no longer afford.
Best wishes on this new chapter in your life.
Wow. I was deeply moved by your previous post (in addition to my suggestion/request that you leave your account alive for posterity, even if you have no intention (which I support) to come back).
It was one of the best posts I have read on GAW, because it spoke of someone who is looking forward, who has real determination, and who is focusing on the key thing: your family (that is, soon arriving daughter).
It was a bit surreal, because I think in our case (you and I) there have been some hot-headed interactions, kek, on your part I think, and the quality you displayed in your recent determinations seemed so different.
In sooth, all is forgiven. Your apology is dad-worthy, and regardless of how others feel, you taking responsibility for yourself here is the real win. One that I think the rest of us fully support and fully celebrate.
I'll let you in on a secret. I was married at age 25, had my first child (a daughter) at age 30. For many years, I thought I was kind of perfect, but I had a problem I was not aware of. I had anger issues.
It never occurred to me, until one day, when I was about 50 (yes), a close friend told me "you have anger issues". I was shocked. I could not believe it. But, it was the beginning of a journey of recovery and realization.
My family, my beloved children and my wife, had suffered a lot because I had bouts of explosive anger, and I was completely oblivious to the impact it was having on them.
Through that first realization, and lots of subsequent work, in great part aided by my children, I have reached a place where that anger is gone (praise God), resolved almost completely, and I am a lot more able to express myself while taking care of those I love. Moreover, I understand a lot better where that anger was coming from: pain.
I write this not because I am comparing myself to you or you to me. Or that I am suggesting that you have anger issues.
I am writing this to tell you, life is a journey, and if our hearts and minds are open, the learning and the growing never stops, and the love we invest in our children will make them love us despite our many individual limitations.
Love rises above and leads all.
My sincerest, heartfelt wishes for great success on your journey of love. Your daughter will be one of your most important guides.
Godspeed, homebrewer.
God bless you my brother
I bet you're going to sleep well tonight. I'm happy for you. Blessings to you and your family. Lots of love.
That is very gracious and noble of you.
This is the way.
Sometimes our sarcasm gets feeling like we’re talking to a wall. I’m personally not offended, all good.
You sir are becoming the product of the plan to MAGA. God speed fren! Be the type of man you'd want your daughter to find!
Fren, that was part of your charm. You and Pepesee always told it like it is. We're fundamentally completely different people but I think that's why I can read what you write and get behind it. We're awake. We're anons. We're frogs and we're supposed to have slippery sticky skin so everything slides off
I'll say this. I don't know if you like him but Liberal Hivemind on YouTube just had a baby girl less than a few months ago. You can even hear her making sounds in the back of his videos. Maybe you should message him and you guys can become frens. You're both about the same age and you both have the same exact goal regarding your daughter and our nation
Spend as much time as possible enjoying your child's development. They grow up way too quickly, although it might not seem that way at first. Live your life the way you would like her to remember you, and all will be well. You don't need to leave this community to do that, but it's your call.
As for myself, the discussions that I've bookmarked here comprise a valuable historical resource that I refer to rather often (as an engineer I like to check and re-check things.) I was your age when I started my family; I'm 73 atm. I'd love to do it all over again if I could.
Some say women are attracted to men that remind them of their fathers - whether consciously or unconsciously. You made a true statement of not wanting your daughter to see you acting a certain way. It takes a big man to admit their mistakes and make an effort to correct them. Don't be too hard on yourself but at the same time take responsibility. Sounds like that is what you are doing. Kudos for recognizing that - some never do.
Shower that precious little girl with plenty of love - and I don't mean that in a creepy way. Demonstrate for her what a healthy marriage relationship looks like every day and show her you love her and her mother. Men should love the women in their lives as Christ loves the Church. He is your example - humble strength. Follow God and allow Him to guide your steps and your path. You will make mistakes along the way. But from what you have said I have faith that you are on the right path. Stay the course and the best of luck to you and your family. Stop back once in a while to give us an update. Would love to hear it.
Happy Easter! Enjoy your life
With the wisdom to reflect like that I think you’ll be a very good father. The main theme of a sermon I heard over 40 years ago when I was in college referred to 1 Timothy 6:6 “Godliness with contentment is great gain”.
I haven’t always lived up to that but God decided to sear it in my brain I believe as a grounding principle. Passing along to you in the hope that it’s helpful.
Sending prayers of blessings to you and your family as you take the next steps. 🙏😎
yes, did notice that- was most enjoying especially knowing you would come back around lol God bless
I pray for you only the best. You are about to find out truly what unconditional love is, which is pure love. You will find absolute joy in her joy and laughter and your heart will tear when she's hurt physically or emotionally.
Enjoy the journey. It goes so fast. You have your priorities in order.
Congratulations on the new baby. You and your young family will be in my prayers. It is truly the most beautiful and terrifying adventure being a parent. You will be a good Dad I know this because you are already seeking to be good enough for your little one as you said. You are and you will be. God chose you to be her Daddy. She will be very loved and you will rise to any occasion for her. You are 32 and have the maturity to listen to your heart and determination to walk in love as Christ taught. You are going to give her a wonderful home where she can grow and blossom and her mother can also grow in blossom as she steps into her new role as mother. May the Lord bless you
Wow, praise God! It is the work of the Holy Spirit and the work of the Holy Spirit alone, that brings conviction leading to true repentance. "If we confess our sin, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and cleanse us of all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9) "Whom the Son sets free is free indeed"( John 8:36) 🙏
Hi brother...no apologies needed but thank you for your Grace filled spirit. To apologize is sometimes the most difficult thing but also the most necessary to be a good human being.
I am 32 years old and still learning about life
You are far ahead of many who don't have your wisdom. Life is a learning curve and we are all human and make mistakes but to want to correct mistakes and grow to lead a better life as an example to your child is a beautiful gift to give her .✨🙏🤍
God bless and we understand, you are very young. Good luck.
Acts 15:2 - When therefore Paul and Barnabas had no small dissension and disputation with them, they determined that Paul and Barnabas and certain others of them should go up to Jerusalem unto the apostles and elders about this question.
No worries on that front, sir. It’s still good to have your temper under control. They will pick it up, and they will adopt it, or react to it, and it can hurt your ministry, even at times when it feels like it might be justified.
Having a child will reveal the worst in us, as in, we will see what’s truly in our hearts. Choosing to change behavior because you desire to mirror Christ is such a strong conviction and good thing. I’ve have to uproot some behaviors that I definitely don’t want my child to mimic, being an “older” first time parent (I was 31 before we had our first and only) we’ve been able to watch those around us and glean more. Blessings to you and your family in this new season of life, may God bless you and keep you.
You have reached Manhood youngman,some never will.
I wish you nothing but success as a father. It is a great blessing that I did not appreciate. I cheated on my wife and it costs me my children in a divorce. My daughter was 7 and my son was 4. They haven't had anything to do with me for 50 years. Be a good father and faithful husband and your life will be so blessed.
It's all good, man. And if you know you're still learning, you're already ahead of 99% of the people out there. Cheers!
I love that, and thank you for bravely posting. This kind of move really touches my heart, because my daughter's father hasn't had any such concern. He now lives several states away, and they barely ever talk...certainly not about anything important. A girl needs her dad to love and honor her, and you absolutely can turn your passion from anger into Love through being a Father.
Very sorry to hear that. If you are on the west coast feel free to hit me up. Always open to my daughter having new friends. God bless you.
Parenthood changes a lot of people. For the better. Congrats on becoming one of them. Cruise through and say hi now and then if you like.
If you sinned against me, you wouldn't be here.
You would be in a street march for NO KINGS
That's how I know. God speed Saint
He is risen indeed, in your heart as well as in reality.
Rom 12:18 If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all.
This you have done.