This has been an odd feeling I've been having for the past couple weeks. I feel like I was "baptized" and born again, but I can never really pinpoint when it happened. Over time I lost identity of who I was growing up, as if the lockdowns completely erased all sense of who I was. I still have memories of my younger self of course, but now they don't really feel like they're my memories. A lot of my ambitions remain the same, but I still like there's a lot missing. Think of switching from Windows to Linux and you're still struggling to learn all the features. That's how, I guess, my soul feels.
Anyone else experiencing this? Is this supposed to be a good thing?
I feel like my sense of humor and adventure is still here, but my values have changed and I don't really care what anyone thinks about me anymore. I'm single and would like a woman friend, but most of those available are NPC feminist types. I wish I could go back to a more carefree lifestyle, but i'm closer to God and wouldn't change that for a thing. Also, I've experimented with psilocybin and switched from city water to well water (left the city for the country) and my third eye is beginning to open again. The earth is a beautiful place and it took this misery to open my eyes.
Have done full doses of mushrooms, but have been microdosing psilocybin for the first time in my life this week. Have combined them with Lions Head and Cordycdeps.
All I have to say is…woah. My thoughts are clearer, the worlds a bit brighter, and my energy is significantly increased. This stuff is a medicine and it was provided to us by God to help us cope with the challenges of our world. The fact it’s been kept from us is criminal, people need to be jailed for that alone.
Psilocybin mushrooms helped me heal from CPTSD. If you haven’t watched it, you should check out the film “Fantastic Fungi.” Mushrooms are truly amazing and a blessing from God. They can literally help re-wire your brain.
That they are!! I make sure to thank God everytime I consume my dose, it’s important to take this stuff with positive intentions for the full effect. I’m convinced they may be associated with the “bread” that Jesus referenced with the disciples in the Bible as well.
Wouldn’t shock me on bit if He was teaching them how to use the medicine and when the Roman Catholic’s found out they rearranged the text to make it seem like it’s just normal bread they were eating. Much easier to control a public that is NOT utilizing these in the correct manner.
Yep! If memory serves me right, Graham Hancock did an excellent thesis on ancient Christianity and how natural psychedelics (mushrooms in particular) played a role in its development.
For context; set and setting are important as well. This combined with the right intention (prayer) and the result can change your life. It did mine. I haven’t used them in a few years since my last “therapeutic” dose. Why? I haven’t needed them! I’m not only more in tune with myself and others, but my connection to God has never been more intimate and real.
This is awesome, I’m glad to hear they helped you heal! More people need to be introduced to them. Our current state of mental health care is a disaster and these could change things.
Will definitely look up that thesis, the influence of psychedelic on Christianity would not shock me one bit.
Actually, it was Graham Hancock and Brian Muraresku being interviewed by Joe Rogan where I first heard of the theory. Brian Muraresku does a fantastic deep-dive on it. I highly recommend checking him out. Beware, the initial theory/book “Jesus was a Mushroom” was posed back in 1970 by Allegro and has for the most part been discredited. However, Brian provides a new and interesting perspective that I found fascinating.
“bread” is interesting. About a hundred years ago there was a town in Eastern France where the townspeople had a feast and most ate from the same bread, which contained the active ingredients of LSD.
From Wikipedia: “LSD was first synthesized by Swiss chemist Albert Hofmann in 1938 from lysergic acid, a chemical derived from the hydrolysis of ergotamine, an alkaloid found in ergot, a fungus that infects grain.”
Whoa! Hadn’t heard of this. Maybe the theories about the “bread” being a psychedelic are correct then? Could absolutely see it
Yup. This is the way.
Where do I get this stuff? Is it legal?
Lionshead and Cordycep mushrooms are legal, can find people selling supplements online but be sure to your due diligence.
Psilocybin mushrooms are not legal if you’re in the U.S. However, they have been decriminalized in some states. Look up the “Uncle Ben’s Rice Psilocybin” method, this is NOT encouraging illegal activity ;)
Screwed with mushrooms once before. Immediately after I changed my life, stopped the sinful path I was in, re-found Jesus, he delivered my wife into my life just weeks afterwards and things changed ever since. Haven’t touched mushrooms since then. I always associated them with the darkness I went in right before the light. But I owe it to them for opening up my eyes.
You're best off staying single. The divorce laws are made to benefit the woman and government. Marriage is a sham to extract resources from men.
I understand too well. I was entrapped and have a child from that debacle.
That fucking sucks.
I see elves everywhere I look now. Can’t get them out of my sight. Besides that I’m just generally more based. I take shit from no one. I don’t care about their judgements nor any of their words. I know how God wants me to serve Him. It’s all so clear now.
Yes, it happened in 2012
I also feel that 2012 was the end before this second end. Why do so many have this sensation about 2012?
Memory's a bit hazy on this, as I wasn't involved in the movement, but wasn't that around the time of GamerGate?
2011-12 for me as we; more like a migration than a specific time.
December
Oh yes! I feel like I’m living two lives. I am living 2 lives! Pre-awakening life vs post-awakening life.
My brain is now wired differently. Some days I feel like I’m in the twilight zone. I have some friends I can openly talk to about the awakening and other friends who are still asleep and we talk about other things.
I’m looking for groceries that aren’t loaded with toxic chemicals and home products that are healthy for my family. My family is as awake as I am and while they don’t rabbit hole as much as me, we love sharing stories we have learned. I’ve never been a tree-hugger, as I know about the climate hoax and what they have been selling was crap, while they buy their million dollar ocean front properties. But I’m looking for great all natural products and I have the whole family in on it. All natural laundry detergent to all natural shampoo. I’m trying not to buy from the big box retailers. We need to shift those jobs away from the Cabal to our small businesses.
It’s the strangest life I’m living because had you asked me 5 years where I was going to be in 5 years, this wasn’t it !!!
I was slowly waking up about the media when Trump was in office, but the 2020 election was my epiphany night. I love reading these wake-up stories.
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I've noticed that time seems to have greatly sped up. The day is here and gone before I know it.
This to me is what I feel “Operation Warp Speed” really means. We are witnessing the collapse of the old guard happen so quickly. Think about how many Deepstate agendas we’ve flown through unscathed, for the most part. These narratives and agendas USED to have effects, now they just throw anything on the wall hoping it sticks. All in 2ish years.
Normies ARE waking up, slowly but surely, it’s becoming inevitable… seriously.
I think that's just getting older. I've heard such things from people for decades, and they always mention that it seems to continue even as an adult and often seems worse when you continue to get older. So I think this is more just a very common feeling coming from aging.
And movies and tv all suck now because I can’t watch without pointing out the woke, grooming bullshit that is no longer gently subliminal but hard core in your face all immigrants are super intelligent enlightened beings that only need a chance, every black woman is in charge of every department, religious people are nutcases, gun owners are hillbilly militia that need to be hunted by the fbi.
I remember getting turned off by the advertisements in 1992. Now... I don't know how any self-respecting person could pour that poison into their brains. TV is pure garbage.
You’re not far off, but I think we win this in the end. Their time is up!
yes, had a stroke a few months before the 2016 election, and things have been progressively strange ever since. sometimes wonder if I'm in some type of purgatory and just don't realize it. hope that's not possible.
Before any fucks with you, I want to ensure that you know that this is the base reality that you knew before the stroke. I know things are weird right now, but they are "off" for everyone.
Don't worry. Things will get better.
appreciate the reassurance, good to have you guys to chat with/dont know many people who can talk logically about spirit realm. And yes, I doubt such trickery would be allowable, but things just seem so surreal anymore, and Q has definitely taken it to another level!;)
DId you have a NDE?
not the way i would have expected. was in a coma for a few days/wasn't supposed to make it. and when I woke up, didn't remember any details at first, which i thought was super strange since I've always been somewhat obsessed with what's on the other side.
so this lack of an NDE lead to all kinds of other searching experiences; like QHHT, remote viewing, etc.
fortunately Q came a long before I could try anything else. lots of quackery out there, who try to keep us away from learning about Jesus.
wow that sounds frightening/would be a lot to process, especially with the brain fog:( hopefully you've been able to move on, and don't have to deal with it anymore. think mine was caused by stress (working in a liberal environment was too much)
now that I get to stay home doing much better. Often think this was part of a bigger plan so I'd have to focus/research.
Yes, this! My fren, you nailed my feelings over that past 2 months
I can sort of pinpoint the moment my eyes became open, around the Bush Kerry election I saw a web site about how both guys were Skull and Bonesman. Something sparked and I started researching for 20 more years, some seasons more than others, until the Las Vegas shooting, something didn’t add up and I’ve spent all my online free time researching since.
I wouldn’t want to be the person I was 14 months ago, when I surrendered my heart to Jesus. But my life changes have been mostly incremental, not sudden.
Unlike you I do know and remember who I was back then: maybe saved but so far from God that this world sucked so I filled it with alcohol, weed and porn.
I think the world situation and the repeated seeds of advice to get right with God being planted on this site and forums similar to this one helped get me back on track.
Thanks for posting, being awake for a couple of decades has come with a price. The past few weeks though I have re focused on the future, and have been feeling very optimistic.
I'm glad to see your optimism fren. Can I borrow some? Last few weeks have been unpleasant and my stock is pretty depleted.
I know exactly what you mean.
I am a completely different person than I was in 2019, and it goes beyond physical and emotional maturity as you age.
I completely understand what you are saying. The last couple years have changed my life for better and for worse. My perception of the world obviously is completely different because of the great awakening. Also, I added Jesus to the daily diet. Paul said 'Do not be conformed to the world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, and that's pretty much going to sum it up. Real life is far stranger than fiction. I cannot listen to music like I used to, watch movies like I used to..it's a rebirth, as you said. You are definitely not alone. I have questioned my sanity numerous times and wondered if we are in purgatory or hell. Those are the bad days, at least. Other days my heart is on fire for Jesus and I feel like the world wants me to hate him, so I will love him more and more. I essentially have become everything that is opposite of what the world wants me to be. Be YOU, friend!
I understand the movies bit, but music? What did you listen to before and why did you stop?
For me it’s the message or the words in music. When I was younger I listened to ICP and it’s VULGAR and full of profanity. Imagine 10 years later you’re talking to Jesus and the lyrics about murder and slaughter start running through your head. It’s not pleasant.
Romans 12:2 is what I use to combat those thoughts.
I See Pee is trash man. You should listen to Iron Maiden.
We're not in the same reality. Our reality was shifted into this one supposedly in 2012. That's when the whole Mandela effect started happening and people were starting to realize that somethings are not as they remember. It sounds crazy but I've experienced it well. I've felt detachment from past memories that used to spark emotion and now nothing. It's like your memory is not yours but it is yours at the same time. It had something to do with CERN in 2012 and the end of the Mayan calendar but I do believe we shifted realities like a train switching tracks but nobody on the train realized we switched tracks.
Hits the blunt again.
Every day, man. Every day.
Past self & most of the ego (still need a healthy amount)
I am EMBARRASSED at who i used to be, and i am paying for it karmackly.
What I'm dealing with is actually being alive long enough to remember being radically different in various points of time but not being able to precisely see when the transition between those states of being took place. Like the amount of memories I have for these various personas seem way too high for the amount of time they lasted. Especially when I consider the amount of purely wasted time spent as a hardcore addict avoiding responsibility.
I believe I know exactly why, it’s trauma. Your brain is trying to forget the painful parts and this causes memory loss. This reminds me of mind control, from the 3 letter agencies.
This was the point. I felt it slip away too.
Every week that slid by I realized I was changing irreversibly. These people are sick.
I can relate to what you are saying. Though I’ve been through a lot of shifts of mind throughout my life, and adjusted, right now I’m becoming aware I need to stop trying to go back to experiences and people I miss from the past, (trying to go back disappoints) and just stay in the here and now and enjoy what I enjoy, live my life in the place I have chosen to be.
It seems that we are awakening as a world, to some truth… light is illuminating the darkness. Some awaken more slowly than others. The scales are falling from our eyes and we see differently.
I so appreciate this forum.
I feel like I wish I knew then, what I know now. It would have affected my entire career choice and other unwise decisions. If only we had foresight instead of hindsight. But I believe a God has a plan for all of us, and what happened in life is how HE meant it to happen in the greater plan. Sometimes the PLAN forces you to be stronger than you thought you were to support others, to face adversity, to awaken others. God never gives you more than you can handle and the strength he gives you helps you mentally and physically meet challenges.
Yes. Totally. And it's?hard to put into words but i feel the same as u described. Have for like 2 years now.
If your metaphor is accurate, get ready to feel that way for a long, long time...
My parents ruined my and my sister's lives. She turned into a narcissistic cunt because of them. I think my subconscious hides a lot of the bad shit that happened when I was a kid. Some things that happened to me feel like they never did. I sometimes wonder if my mind planted false memories in itself to protect my conscious mind.
Not saying you bought into much or any, but the amount of propaganda we've had to endure the last two years has been on such a level that I don't think Goebbels could have imagined it even if he was thinking of the future. I don't believe we have to necessarily experience something bad ourselves for our mind to protect us.
40 years ago
Yep.
I'm back and I won't stop until the enemy is laid bare before the world.
It doesn't. Only your present self ever still exists.
This I have felt over the past year and a half, I found a church that is connected to the Church (the people of God). I'm addressing my Same sex attraction and trying to figure out my sin nature. God through Christ has given me new life and I am finally claiming that for myself.
Jesus heals all. Just believe on him and claim your healing.
This is the right thing to do. We all have sin. I don't hate gay people, I hate the sin and their way of forcing people to accept them and support their sin.
It's comparable to heroin addicts forcing society to accept their way and celebrate it rather than trying to get help and address their sin.
Jesus is supporting you in repentance. I am trying to address some of my sins as well, and it is very difficult. Good luck
Thanks, It is much appreciated. I do recommend seeing if there is a church in your area that host a Re:Generation program. It isn't meant to try and "fix" you, but give you the toolset to rely on God and His strength to fight the strong holds of sin and grow closer to Him. I will keep you in prayer.
All sin is equal in Gods eyes, it prevents us from being closer to him. Just like you don't hate me for my sin nature, I don't hate you for yours.
We as believers (The Church/Ecclesia) must walk together through our struggles. Best of luck to you as well. May Gods will be done in my life and in yours. Not easy but worth the work. I think of the song New Wine, "in the crushing, in the pressing, you (God) are making new wine". It will not be comfortable but it will bring new wine in a new wine skin.
Thank you. God bless you in your journey. We shall meet in heaven one day.