It’s called being human. What did Jesus say to the adulterer…go and sin no more. And to the crowd ready to stone her? “Let he without sin cast the first stone.” Only God is perfect. Ask God for forgiveness and then, forgive yourself.

Cry. Repent. Then let it go.

Everyone is flawed.

To recognize your faults is to be reborn.

Last year we studied the book of John. In chapter 4:1-42 is the story of the Samaritan woman. Backstory - Jews did not walk through Samaria, they would go around. John 4:4ESV says "And he [Jesus] had to pass through Samaria." Had to. He could have gone around, but he HAD TO pass through Samaria. Why? To meet the Samaritan woman. In those days a man would not speak with a woman he was not related to, but Jesus did. He revealed to her that he was the Messiah. He chose a woman, a samaritan, a sinner, to reveal a very important message to. This should tell you he was serious about John 3:16-18 ESV .

"For God so loved the world, in that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God." .

God loves you. Jesus died for you because he wants you with him in heaven for all eternity. He knows you just as much as he knew the Samaritan woman and would walk anywhere you were to tell you he is the Messiah. He did not come to condemn you. Believe him.

. Dear Lord, grant this beloved sister in Christ your assurance of salvation and fill her with your love and peace. I ask this in Jesus Holy name, Amen.

If you repent your sins are forgiven. In Micah 7:19 we are told; "he will have compassion upon us; he will subdue our iniquities; and thou wilt cast all their sins into the depths of the sea." Once forgiven your sins are forgotten. But Satan likes to remind you and make you feel guilty about the sins you committed in the past. That's when you need to tell him, "get thee behind me Satan.' A line I heard once has stuck with me. It goes like this; When Satan reminds you of your past, remind him of his future."

Your timing couldn’t be more serendipitous, it seems pretty profound you have reached this point in your life at the start of the Lenten season, a season of repentance and renewal. This is not a coincidence, I believe Jesus is with you and he does forgive you. Now forgive yourself and start taking the baby steps to renewal.

Forgive yourself and promise to do better. I’ve realized the world is only as good as its people- same for anything a church or community is only as good as its people. So be the good the world desperately needs. As mother Angelica said - be holy where you are now. Whether washing dishes, working a job, driving to work. Be grateful for each moment of the day & do your best. And love our creator above all- the rest will come easy.

Demons will tell you to hate yourself and berate yourself and that God doesn't love you. You may be under attack. I know because I still go through this from time to time. Remind yourself that it's not true and that Christ loves us all and holds us all close. Surround yourself with uplifting Bible passages and music. Pray about it and ask your guardian angel to protect you from darkness. You will be okay.

Reading this post I feel a need to again say that I do not have alt accounts :)

There are no self-reflections on top of mountains - it's only in the valleys that we find our need for a savior.

Your story sounds like mine. You are not alone. I thank God for giving us Jesus. God made us, He understands us, He wants us to need Him, but He also has to allow us to get to the point of broken so that we need Him in our hearts, minds, and souls bad enough to cry out.

Thanks for sharing your heart. If I could provide a suggestion, it would be to contact ACBC (Association of Certified Christian Counselors) and find a certified Christian counselor near you and start getting some solid biblical advice. She will help you work through the things you have mentioned and will give you eternal hope. Blessings to you.

I will pray for you.

I've done bad things too.

You're not alone.

But, I think being in this community and knowing what you know about the world is somehow in a way, a good thing.

Being on the side of the good guys, in a world of good vs evil DESPITE your imperfection/"humanness".

Not just being on the side of good; but also having the courage/willingness know what most don't know/don't want to know.

Just that part alone, being on the side of good against evil and knowing the "true truth" which scares most, I personally believe that is a good omen, a good reflection on you however lost you may be at the moment.

I feel your pain.

I think we all have those feelings.

We all have sins that we would have trouble admitting.

With the guilt you feel, I bet you will never do it again.

That is all God wants, you to learn from your mistakes, always strive to become a better person, ask for forgiveness, thank Jesus for your blessings, and live by the word of God.

Spreading the word of Jesus is the winning move, I still have yet to take up that endeavor, but I am working on it.

Yesterday is history.

Today is the first day of the rest of your life.

Pick yourself up and move forward.

Try to do good acts in future.

Best wishes, fren.

This is the way most people think about their own lives if they are being honest. We are not what you see on Instagram and Facebook.

You have taken the first and most crucial step towards salvation. Admitting to yourself that you are a sinner.

Welcome to the party. We’re all being lied to and misdirected.

I live with a crap ton of guilt. It's enough to cause me stomach ulcers. None of us are perfect. We live and hopefully we learn from our mistakes. We try to do better and we ask for forgiveness. God loves us and wants only the best for us. Give it to the Lord.🙏❤️

Things will get better. If you regret, atone, then do good from now on. Taking responsibility is the first step. Consider your actions vs the actions of the horrible Cabal we are fighting. Perspective helps. Try not to make a rash decision. Peace.

You are not alone !

Here's the truth dear one. If there was even one person who was sinless, Jesus never would have had to die on the cross. It's the greatest and most powerful gift ever even conceived. None of us deserve it. But Jesus didn't save us to make us feel guilty. He knew all of the stupid crap that we would do. He came to restore to us the eternal life that we were always intended to have. Put guilt on the alter and be done with it. God forgave us. Now we need only forgive ourselves.

Don't be so hard on yourself, for your past.

We are human.

Just stay focused on the future.

It sounds like he may have ADHD or some type of autism. Just to get started - if you go to Instagram and start looking into the topics, I listed above, you can get some 30 second clips that might help you understand your illness.

With that being said, I suggest accepting Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. Find a Bible believing church, read God word every day, and find a very good Womens Bible Study. Having a Womens Bible Study helps to keep you grounded in God’s word, and gives you support of other women. They’ve been a great help with me and my mental issues.

We’re living in dark Times, sometimes it’s good to take a break from a place like this. But you do sound like you could have some type of ADHD or autism. There’s nothing wrong with you, you’re just different. Like many of us here. 👏👏👏

The more I dive down into understanding the depths of my own depravity, the more I understand the depth of God's grace, and my need for it.

Anon, it sounds like you're turning a corner.

Unburden yourself, by forgiving yourself and asking God for forgiveness. Cast you worries on him.

None of us are perfect and some of us know how bad evil can get and do everything we can to flee the other way.

Deep feeling, CONNECTED to the actual events you're crying (or whatever) about, is actually healing.

Trauma -- feelings too painful to feel at the time, which get repressed (and you may or may not have access to memory about them) -- doesn't just fade away because by definition it's powerfully threatening, and continuously seeks to rise to full consciousness so the threat can be addressed -- even though the threat is now over.

Defenses work to prevent full consciousness, but the feeling and the defenses against the feeling leak out into actions, thoughts, physical symptoms, attitudes, and so on.

Smoking, drinking, buying stuff we don't need, sex with strangers, anger aimed at people who don't deserve it, panic attacks, depression, and a thousand other things are among the results and "strategies" of repressed feeling. In every case the engine powering it all is pain of one sort or another. Old trauma is something the system strongly wants to avoid but can't; it doesn't really matter what the details are (except to the person him/herself).

Deeply connecting to whatever experience is being repressed -- not just talking about it or "understanding" it -- defuses both the feeling and the problems it causes. Your system is no longer trying to repress a painful or threatening experience that desperately NEEDS to reach full consciousness, because you HAVE BECOME CONSCIOUS of it. Not just aware of it, but deeply, fully conscious of it. "Message delivered", at last. The four-alarm fire the system needed to respond to has been taken care of.

If you have someone you trust who you can talk to about your feelings, that can be a big help. They need to listen and do almost nothing else; they aren't there to give you advice or anything like that but to just be a supportive presence while you go through a difficult process.

Caveat: as with anything we do (or choose NOT to do), there are dangers in opening up to deep feeling. Of course, not opening up means you don't ever really get better, which has plenty of danger of its own.

Few people ever go through this process, and nearly all forms of therapy focus (whether they admit it or not) on improving the symptoms instead of addressing the underlying problem. Indeed, some things are far better, even far healthier, as defenses than others. Stop smoking (and maybe take up an exercise routine) for example. For some people, that works well enough to be worthwhile -- reducing lung cancer risk is not a bad thing! But there are people for whom swapping harmful symptoms for positive ones (or at least less-harmful ones) isn't enough.

You might be one of those people.

Either way, I wish you well on your journey through life.

Two things. One, everyone is an asshole and does asshole things as they grow up. Longer sometimes. If you recognize those asshole things, you learned what you were to learn. You don't like guilt. Free yourself by not doing the things that bring you guilt. Learn, and behave like you've learned, and the things you did were not so bad. Anyone who wronged me, but learned from it and acted accordingly, they are forgiven. You know, to a point. It doesn't sound to me that you have gone beyond that point. Two, unhealthy relationships aren't good for anyone. Find your way out. Move on and find someone who will treat you like a good person. Then deserve to be treated that way. The past has passed. Let it go.

My dear, you have made a huge step forward by admitting this. There was a girl I dated a short while in college who had a boyfriend she tried to keep a secret. When I found out, at first she denied it, then admitted that she was dysfunctional. The other guy was pathetic, and she felt like he needed her more than I did. Like it was a charity mission. I gave her chance after chance, but I gave up on her. Many girls go down this path, unfortunately.

My sister also married a broken man, thinking "he needs me, and I can help him." He was a former Satanist and a recovering drug addict, and was incredulous why my parents were not happy about her relationship with him. She shacked up with him and was $20k in debt within the first year, and debt collectors as well as repo men were at our house looking for her because she wasn't making payments. My parents truthfully told them that they did not know where she was. They lived together for years but when I became engaged, she forced him to finally marry her because she was competitive and did not want her younger brother to get married before she did, so they eloped at a court house and did not invite anybody. It's been over two decades and I never ask her if he's working or not, because he probably isn't. She was warned by other girls who had him figured out, telling her that he's just a leech. She married him anyway.

She is still in denial. When I confronted her last year about the path she took, she blamed it all on our parents for not going to a church she wanted to attend. That was her excuse to throw away her morality. She refuses to admit it wrongdoing.

If only my sister could advance as you have. Repentance is what God wants from you. From all of us. God bless you. Find a counselor like others have suggested.

Don't know if you've watched any of The Chosen, but if not, maybe check out the episode where He meets the Samaritan woman at the well. Everything is washed clean in His blood. Prayers for you, fren.

Welcome to the family! If you look at Scripture, you will see quite a few badly behaved people, including ones who became great heroes. Peter and Paul, two pillars of the Church, were both great sinners- Peter denied knowing Jesus after having been His disciple for three years and being warned it would happen - He said "No, I won't!". Paul participated in the stoning of Stephen, who even as he was dying said, "Do not lay this sin to their charge!"

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20Corinthians%206&version=ESV

9 Or do you not know that the unrighteous[b] will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality,[c] 10 nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. 11 And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.

But there is no Condemnation in Messiah Jesus:

Read Romans 7 and 8 - We still struggle with sin just as Paul admitted in Romans 7 , but we have the victory through Jesus!

Petra: Just Reach Out, And He'll Reach In: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8xRYsPEiqAs

You are blessed Anon. Your entire world is about to be spiritually rocked. I don't know how many people have ever cried what I call Soul Tears. In my experience crying from the soul is the biggest spiritual awakening I have ever had. Tears came from someplace that I didn't not know tears exist. Give it a couple of days you will find guidance from the most insane sources. Keep a diary if you can. God speed fren!

Remember we all had a Purpose .. Before anybody had an opinion...

Fren you're half way to Heaven as it were.

1 John 1:9  If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

Psalm 103:11&12 For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him; 12 as far as the east is from the west, so far does he remove our transgressions from us.

What the "Gospel Message" is ia a promise of God's that is for us to transfer our faith to Him from ourselves. It's only when we recognize our need of God's forgiveness that it makes sense though. All sin is an offense to the righteous God who created this world.

Romans 3:23 for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,

We, on our own, are broken and we break things. The very next verses though:

Romans 3:24 and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, 25 whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith.

"To be received by faith" - it's understanding the promise and acting on it.

"as a propitiation by his blood" - this refers to Jesus' act of sacrifice dieing on behalf of everyone else to take the punishment all our sins deserve.

"whom God put forward" - this is referring to it being God's initiative to reach out to us and for us.

"through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus" -this is what Jesus' whole coming was all about. Redemption is reclaim through the appropriate means what was yours. We've all went stupid and wandered away to be owned by sin. Redemption here is God's work of getting us back.

"as a gift" - God offers this at an infinite cost to Himself so that this is free to us.

"are justified by his grace" - to be justified it to have what is rightfully due you be declared concerning you. Like when an honorable judge pronounces a verdict at the end of a trial. Right now you are just to acknowledge your sin. God may be just in declaring you righteous if you would take him up on His offer.

What is His offer? Forgiveness and righteousness in your relationship with Him. That's the gift. That is what being saved is. This is what eternal life is.

Consider Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

2 Corinthians 5:21 For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

Romans 10:9 because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

The Gospel is this: God has made a promise of forgiveness and righteousness to all those who will trust Him concerning it. It is for us to acknowledge we've done wrong and it separates us from Him but by believing/requesting His action of redemption to be given to us He graciously pardons and gifts the perfect track record of Jesus to us in our relationship with Him. This is truly become one of His. This is when living starts. I can go on if your interested.

Please know you're not alone and frens love you! Praying for you!

God loves us and sent his son Jesus to save us. We are all sinners, but thru Jesus, we can be forgiven for our sins. Sometimes the mind is harder to cure than the heart, but remember, God loves you. A good book to read may be the “Battlefield of the Mind” by Joyce Meyer. It will help with negative thoughts we all face as Christians.

Love and prayers…..

Hang in there… you are going through “the dark night of the soul.” There is a light at the end of this journey and you will make it through. Find people to talk to, or a counselor.